as long as i'm next to you, i'm okay.
you are my safe place, as holy a heaven as a false god can promise.
everything feels warm with you, never cold and sharp, even when the voices of an overtired dreamer pipe up and make me doubt reality, you comfort me and hold me closer, hold me with more comfort than before.
i never knew that love had a sound until i heard your laughter and your soft snoring at night, the shine of our colorful lights bouncing off the hair that's resting over your eyes.
everything about you is soaked in magic, pixie dust and fairy tales that are now a reality with you, like mother goose herself could come strutting through our bedroom door.
i am so grateful to have you in my life, as i always will be. nobody is perfect, but god damn do you challenge that statement. i cherish every moment with you, even when we're just resting, your arm wrapped around me as you curl up in my lap like a small cat. i can hear you purring sometimes, i think. as my hand meets your scalp and runs through your hair like wind through grass, you shudder and a smile meets your resting lips.
i hope i make you as happy as you make me, i know i do. i know that laugh is genuine, coated in honey as your sides cramp and you fall over from the thrill of finding someone to meet your humor with the same energy. you make me just as happy, do you know that?
lost pets and broken dreams don't seem to bother me as much when you're around, like you find a way to reignite my passions and my dreams, my happiness.
i care for you like bees do for their hives so their queen is cared for. you, my king, will have an easy life as long as i'm able to give it to you.
i will wake you up with a kiss and a smile, making you breakfast while you wake up.
i will help you get energized in the morning and apply your minoxidil and take my meds with you.
i will drive you to work and sing and laugh with you on the way there and in the parking lot, holding your hand and kissing you unapologetically.
i'll take care of the things you hate doing, for as long as i can muster it, so you can be happy and carefree while off the clock.
you deserve to be happy, to feel at ease and feel loved and cared for. it's the least you deserve.
i understand things can be overwhelming sometimes, your feelings are important to me and i'm here to support you, no matter what. you know that, even when that bug in your head tells you otherwise. (i think you should start charging him rent)
i value our relationship so much. if there's anything on your mind, you know you can share it with me and we'll get through it, together. i'm here to listen and help, in any way possible.
some mornings i wake up and am afraid that when i go to stand, my legs will give out, my knees splitting and my body collapsing on the ground in a heap.
i worry i'll simply forget how to walk, my bones will grow to be gruesome and sore, unable to be therapized back to a state of euphoria
but right now, i can run, i can dance, i can drive and play. and that's valuable. right now has value.
we, have value.
you are the first and last person i will ever love like this, a wish upon a star locked in time's gaze like a museum case.
we will spent forever like this, i have no doubt.
we love hard and soft, without reason or tribulation.
we love, because we love.
it's simple,
and it's us.
