I've never felt adoration for anything the way I feel it for you
Everytime I lay my eyes upon you, even if only for a second, I feel my world slow to a halt.
Like I'm taking in every blemish on your fair skin and every small hair that you've grown so lovingly for the very first time.
I think about that first time I pulled into your driveway and I saw you sitting there in that blue shirt that I love so much. The surprise you wrapped up for me that I still hold so close to me to this day, the picnic and hotel stay that night (that night is something I think about Everytime we share time beneath the stars together now, like you have created an environment only fireflies could recreate as they dance in the ebony silence, only illuminated by their own joy)
Every time I see you I think about that first time I saw you. I fell so hard for you, immediately.
I keep thinking about when I knew I was in love with you but I don't know if there was a time I wasn't, to be honest. Even that first short conversation the day we matched made my whole week, I wanted to know you, to care for you, and to love you, from the first second I met you, Sawyer.
You make me feel like I'm seeing a sunset for the first time after going through a wildfire backdropped by a raging inferno in the sky. You're the stars greeting me at the end of a long and grating journey, the embrace of the neon glow of Christmas lights after a horrible year, and the sunrise on the horizon of hope and ambition.
You light up my life in ways I've never felt before, you are quite literally the man of my dreams. I want to spend my life with you and I am more than prepared to endure anything life throws at me/us to get us to that point, I know you want the same thing.
I love you is a loaded sentiment for me, and not one I drop lightly. It's a shorthand for all of the meaning I have for every fiber of you in my body, the way my body relaxes when I see you and the world melts away, like you're magical.
It's a "thank you" for being here, and a reassurance that I'll always be here, too. It's a promise that thick and thin, my feelings will never change and nothing will ever change my opinion on you, it's set in stone. Our names are etched into the rocks of time and they will become one of the wonders of the world.
It's a gentle touch when I wake you up from a car ride, knowing I've been dreading the thought of disturbing you the whole way home. I contemplated carrying you from the car but that didn't seem fair to do without asking.
It's the gentle push of your glasses throughout the day ever since you laid on them and bent them last month. You were so tired, you didn't mean to make them damaged. It's the kiss on your forehead and a soft smile as I caress your cheek, looking at you and hoping I never have to stop looking into your galaxy enthralled lenses.
I love you is a loaded sentiment for me, but one I mean each and every time I say it. When you leave for work, when I text you throughout the day, when I'm comforting you, when I say it in a chide remark when you say something goofy, and when I kiss you goodnight under the dimly glowing ivy.
I mean it with my whole heart every single time, no hesitation, no ifs ands or buts.
I love our little life, today made three weeks of us living together and I'm so happy and excited for the future. I love you, Sawyer. I can't wait to tell you that forever, and have it mean more every single time ❤️
