Sometimes
Its better to
Just listen.
Sometimes
Its better
To just
Die
Mostly
Breathing
Feels
Like
Dying
Mostly
Dying
Feels like
Living
Mostly
Emptiness
Feels like tears
Mostly tears feel like
Nothing
Its funny sometimes
How i know
What other people are feeling
So well
When everything
I feel
Means
So little
I think id die
Before
Id feel
But i feel
And so
I die
Goodbye my friends
I never knew you
Goodbye myself
We never met
Goodbye strange lover
The bed is cold
The sheets are rumpled
The windows are all locked
The shades drawn
But if you looked
Youd notice
The crack in the door
I left open for you
Because i was desperate for you to see
Even though im the one
Who turned out the lights
Desperate for you to notice
The things i notice
About you
Even though
Im the one
Whose blind
How i hate
How i long to love badly
To bite
To claw
To scratch
To destroy
How it brings me to tears
To want to cause pain
How i suffer
In a soul
Of light
To nurture
My little seedling
Of dark
I want all our kisses to be dripping in blood
I want all our moments to be covered in pain
I want you to hear me whisper
I love you
Even as
Im ripping out
Both our hearts
Please hate me
I cant stand
Myself
Any longer
I think
If you love me
I might die
I think
If you hate me
Ill be
Gone
I think
The cliff
Ive walked
Is too high
I think
The air
We've breathed
Is too little
I don't think we were too late
I think we were
Too much
I think 18
Isnt very old after all
I think maybe
18
Is just old enough
To break your own heart
Because youre scared
To learn
It could one day
Stop beating
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After (2024)
Short StoryIt's a story about recovering from depression. My journey to stay happy after a long couple years. I write mostly poetry. If you want to read more about my struggles click my profile, I have one published story detailing my 2023 year. It's still har...
