After (2024)

Do I? Does it? How will I know?

I don't want happy

I want cigarette smoke
And bruised knuckles
and broken noses

Torn nails
Split lips
And lighter burns

I don't want the good ending

I want to dig the concrete out of my knees
And the glass out of my palms

I want police lights and ambulance sirens

I want graffiti and chain fences
Water runoffs and weedy sidewalks

Storm drains and bridge awnings

I don't want bandages and kisses
I want the hospital monitor and the grumpy nurse

I don't want the city and it's crime
I want the country and it's peace

I don't want the garden and it's fruits
I want the pavement and its failures

I don't want the grass and the trees
I don't want the flowers

I don't want the windows and their bars
I don't want these late hours

I don't want my happy ending
I want my tragedy

I don't want to cry
I want to be seen

Grubby hands and broken fingers
Those aren't things of the light

The more you shine on them
The more I'll want to hide

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