Burned out over math pages
Crumbled into my calculus textbook
Asleep
Someone shakes me half-awake
"What are you still doing out here?"
"Where am I?" I mumble
"Go to bed."
I wake up
Moms mad
I don't know why
I don't remember
Two days later they tell me
I was up too late again
I left all the lights on
How dare I be so selfish?
I don't even remember
I can't remember
Did I do that?
I won't apologize for something I don't remember
I'm so fucking selfish
Right?
No
I just don't remember
I really don't
I can't, I won't, spend my life atoning for the things I don't recall doing
And I know at the moment I sound just like you
And you're angry
You say I'm lying about not remembering
But that's the difference between you and me
You lie about it
I don't
But I'm the villain right?
Than make me your villain
But I won't play the part any longer
Describe me however you want to other people
My life is my own
And I will define myself
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After (2024)
NouvellesIt's a story about recovering from depression. My journey to stay happy after a long couple years. I write mostly poetry. If you want to read more about my struggles click my profile, I have one published story detailing my 2023 year. It's still har...
