𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐈𝐝𝐨𝐥 𝐒𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 ─𝐉𝐉𝐊 (𝐊𝐓𝐇)

F I F T Y

"jungkook loves you y/n" I looked at him bewildered.

"you're acting as if you didn't know it" he chuckled meeting my gaze.

My heart clenched as I looked down thinking about Jungkook.

"but i don't love him in that way" I whispered audible for him to hear. He sighed before turning towards the night view.

"is that your heart or mind? you love him but your mind says not in that way" He asked after a moment.

"I have always loved you Tae and I'll love you forever. No one can take your place from my heart. My heart only beats for you Tae. How could you say like that?!" Tears welled up in my eyes while I turned my gaze to the other side. Hurt and anger filled within me. I could feel his stare on me.

He turned me around while a warm tear escaped from my eye but i didn't meet his gaze. His thumb wiped my tears gently.

"Look at me" He remarked but i didn't.

"I said look at me y/n" his voice was so gentle while I looked up to meet his gaze. My vision was blurry because of the tears I was holding. When our gazes collided more tears rolled down my cheeks and he was fast enough to wipe it.

"what?" I asked turning my gaze to the other side. Anger and hurt could be visible in my face.

His hand travelled to my shoulders as he squeezed it. "won't you listen to me even for once?"

"I don't wanna" I was breathing heavily.

"why are you so angry?" he asked softly as I met his gaze clenching my jaws.

I pushed him hard as he stumbled a bit. I stepped forward asking "Really?! You've the audacity to ask me why I'm angry after saying that I don't love you?!" My voice grew louder as I pushed him continuously.

He gripped my wrists making me stop while tears were flowing continuously.

"first of all, where did I mention you don't love me?" he asked raising a brow.

"you meant that" I replied angrily.

"I didn't mean that" he replied immediately.

"you meant" my voice was growing louder while his was gentle.

"I didn't"

"you did"

"I didn't y/n"

"you did Taehyung"

"I didn't"

"you did"

"will you wait for me knowing that I'm never yours?" I was stunned by his question. I stood there frozen. It was a simple question but it held so many emotions. Hearing this question from him hurts the most. And the question has a realization that he was never mine. A lump formed in my throat as I was holding myself not to break down. It hurts a lot. My breaths got heavier and I felt like someone stabbed my heart. Nothing came out of my mouth as I stared at him with unknown pain.

"Tell me y/n, does your heart only beat for me?" He again questioned while I stood there processing every question.

"y-yes. I'll wait for y-you knowing that you're never mine. and yes my heart.. only beats for you" I whispered but somewhere in my heart it felt wrong.

"are you sure? because your eyes are saying something else" His eyes bore into my soul.

My lips trembled and I couldn't hold back. I clutched his coat tightly as my whole weight pressed against his. And I broke down. He wrapped his arms around me as I cried miserably.