Since 9th Grade

Chapter 27. Never Been Regular

Rose's Point Of View:

I've been waiting for Charlotte to text back, or call for the last 45 minutes. I still don't know where Charlotte is, and I'm getting worried. I open my phone, and go to our texts, and say,

Me: Wya r u safe n good

Charlotte: Yea dw I'm safe

Me: Where r u

I wait for about 15 minutes, for her to respond, and nothing. She can't just be out on the streets and say she's safe and not tell me where she is. I know I sound like a mom, or a Karen but if her own mom won't do some, someone has to. It's really depressing that I'm the only one in the friend group who has a good relationship with both of their parents.

Charlotte has a terrible mom and doesn't get along with her. Ananya has a deadbeat dad, who's also an alcoholic and a druggie. Which is so sad and I feel so bad for her, so. her mom takes care of her. And Autumn's parents died in a house fire, which was crazy. Thank God she's still alive, if I didn't choose a sleepover on that exact day she'd be at her house and... It got caught on fire when their neighbor, was smokin' a cigarette and threw it into their backyard when it wasn't fully out and... The cop and the fire department got there after about 15 minutes, but it had just spread too fast. Also, I think there was gas in the air too, according to Autumn at least. She's been in out the foster system, since most people don't wanna adopt her. Which brings me down, and wonder what's wrong with some people. What do you see wrong with my best friend? Am I crazy that she's my friend?

Autumn's dog somehow survived though, but her dog Bailey died about 6 months ago. He was a great dog. That dog helped her get through quarantine, and deal with the death of her parents. I truly feel so bad for my friends and sometimes think to myself, why? Why am I the lucky one and not them? Why did they get this life and not me? Why does the world have to be so fucking fucked up? Like damn.

I honestly should go to bed now, I have to wake up at 6:45 since I have to take the bus in the morning. It's 11:00 right now, and I usually go to bed at like 10:30. But since Mom and Dad aren't home I just said why not and stayed up late. But the most I can do is at least get in bed. As I hop in bed, I hear the garage open. Shit. I thought they weren't supposed to be home till like 12:00 or 1:00 It's 11:04 right now, there's no way the event was that quick. Also, they left at like late 8:00. I quickly get in bed, and move my backrest pillows by my feet. And I bring my two pillows down from being propped up. While I'm still sitting up, I grab my blue blanket, and put it behind me. While I take my Warriors blanket, and lay it out down to my legs, then do the same with my blue blanket. As I put my phone on the charger I hear the garage door open. Then I hop out of bed, and walk down the hallway, and peek to see Mom and Dad talking. I start to eavesdrop and hear Mom say,

"No. Ethan, she's not ready for 10th grade at all. She barely understood 7th-grade math. What makes you think she'll understand 10th? She has a D- in math right now, and it's the middle of April. We've tried everything for her to get her grade up, but it's just not gonna happen." Wow. My parents don't even fucking believe in me. I try my best in school, I thought they knew that. I may not be the perfect golden child like Nara, but I still try my hardest and my best. As more anger and a bit of sadness courses through my veins, I hear Dad say,

"I understand, she didn't really get 7th-grade math. That doesn't give us a reason to doubt our child. I think she can still bring her grade up. Actually scratch that. I know she'll get that math grade up. I can't believe you'd doubt Rose on being able to pass this year." He says as he storms off and begins heading up the stairs.

Oh shit. I run back to my room, turning off my light as I pass it. Then I hop in bed bringing my laid-down blankets back to me, and I let my head hit the pillow. I turn over, and reach over to my phone, and go to Musi and go to my sleeping playlist. I press play on the 4th song, and I hear Joemari's soft voice on U N I. Usually, I'm asleep by the time Favorite Song is on, which is the next song. Still, for some reason, I have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that I'm gonna have a hard time falling asleep.