The Lotus's Flame

Longing Part 15

It had been four weeks since Jax met them in Frisco, Texas and Nick was already growing tired of his constant mood swings. He had been even more withdrawn and hateful than before. He thought Jax would have gotten this girl out of his system after spending the night and day with her, that he would have gotten his fill of her by then, it was just the opposite the more he had her the more he seemed to want maybe even need her. He was shorter-fused than usual making it nearly impossible to be around him, the slightest comment could send him into a fit of
rage.

A few days ago, Nick asked him how it felt to have a virgin instead of a loose woman for once. Jax went insane and slammed him against the bus shouting that he needed to shut the hell up. After all of that, everyone tried to stay out of his way, just never knowing what he would do next, and it started to take a toll on the entire band.

Jax lay awake in bed, listening to the sound of the bus motor going down the highway. He felt nothing but rage the past four weeks. He had to stay away from his bandmates, especially Nick, so he would not flip out on them again. Day after day and night after night he buried himself in his music, writing all new lyrics for the next tour to be performed in Texas. The concert was less than two weeks away, he wanted a fresh song or two by then. He could not wait to get on that stage and lose himself in the music, anything to get his mind off Kaitlyn and how his body throbbed to fill hers.

Ever since leaving Kaitlyn, Jax drowned himself in whiskey bottles one after the other numbing his pain. When he slept his dreams were filled with her and her tempting lips, touching him all over. Dreams of her lying naked on his bed waiting to be ravished by him, he would kiss her full firm breasts until she whimpered in sheer delight, while he slid his hand between her thighs and caressed her heated nether region until it became warm and wet. Then he would thrust deeply into her warm inviting body, together they always reached total abandonment, complete utter bliss. Jax always woke from these dreams aching all over with raw raging desire. His cock would be throbbing for a woman's warm touch with massiveness.

Jax rolled his eyes back and growled out loud. "Damn. It is going to be a long hard six months." He sat his glass of Amaretto down and lit a cigarette inhaling deeply thinking of the last kiss he and Kaitlyn shared, it had been long and hard his way of telling her he cared, that he
would be with her again. It was his way of showing his feelings instead of having to say them. It was just so hard for him to get close to people. He hated having to tell her he could not call her because he and the band had a strict no-calls rule while on tour.

Kaitlyn made Jax feel so much, made him feel human again and that scared the hell out of him, what would he do if he lost her after he let her into his heart? With all these thoughts in his head, he wrote the lyrics to his newest song. In this song, he would let all his feelings come out without having to say them directly to her. He knew when she heard it, she would know it was for her.

Nick lay on his bed listening to Jax sing the lyrics for the new song. As he listened, he knew it was about Kaitlyn. What was it about this girl that hooked Jax so easily, he did not get it she was completely different from them. How could she ever fit in their world, she was far too pure and innocent. All of this seemed to escape Jax's mind, in all the years he had known him he
never once saw him show the interest he showed her, not to any other woman. He hoped his obsession with this girl did not hurt the band. The last thing they needed was some chick screwing up everything for which they had worked together. Hopefully, Jax will grow
bored with her soon and find someone more down for a party lifestyle.

After finishing the lyrics of the song Jax polished off his glass of whiskey and lay back on the bed. He closed his eyes ready for sleep to take him to dreams of Kaitlyn. He pictured her
A beautiful face smiled down at him, so goddess-like that he wanted to worship her in his arms for all eternity. He wanted to make her his forever. He had never really thought of getting married until now. He would be a willing husband to a woman like her, and he thought to himself as he entered the dream world. She would make a wonderful wife.