Hidden Embers: A Tale of Unspoken Love || JJK

Part : 12

Y/n felt torn and overwhelmed. His words struck her deeply, leaving her feeling exposed and uncertain. She couldn't shake the heaviness in her heart as she grappled with the idea of leaving him forever. It was like trying to navigate through a confusing maze, with each path leading to its own form of pain. She felt trapped in a whirlwind of doubt and fear, unable to see a clear way forward.

"What?" She whispered, barely audible. She couldn't believe his words. She wished desperately that he was joking and that this was all just a dream of hers. But no, it was her reality, suffocating her.

"You heard me, Y/n. I said leave me forever so that you don't have to endure all these things and make yourself suffer more," he said, his tone cold.

"If only it were that easy, Jungkook. Not everything you say or think is that simple," she replied, her tone heavy with emotion. Jungkook chuckled, leaving her feeling even more confused. She couldn't seem to gather her thoughts, unable to comprehend what Jungkook truly wanted.

"Why do you always have to be so preachy, Y/n? Besides lecturing and giving advice, is there anything else you know?" he said, his words piercing her heart. Y/n was shocked, so shocked that she began to wonder if he was someone else entirely. Her Jungkook wouldn't speak like this. He never yelled at her with such harshness.

It was all these things that were causing her even more hurt.
"Have you lost your mind, Jungkook? Please, just think before you speak. Why are you treating me like this?" she said, her voice breaking.

"BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME FEEL PATHETIC, Y/N. SEEING YOU DO ALL THESE THINGS FOR ME MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M NOTHING BUT A BROKEN PERSON WHO NEEDS TO BE FIXED," he yelled, slamming his hands on the dining table in anger, causing her to flinch. Y/n couldn't handle it anymore, no matter how hard she tried. With each passing sentence of his, she felt more and more suffocated, unable to catch her breath.

Her eyes welled up with tears as she watched Jungkook's actions cause the dining table to break, and fragments of glass embedded themselves in his palms as he intentionally h@rmed himself. Seeing him hurting himself because of her was unbearable.

Despite his hurtful words, she slowly walked towards him, her vision still blurry with tears as the broken pieces of crockeries digged inside her bare feet, but she didn't even hiss and kept on walking towards him.

Standing in front of him, she attempted to grab his hands to prevent him from inflicting more harm, but he kept them in the same position, unmoving.

"Jungkook, please don't—" she began, but he forcefully pulled her hands away and shouted, his eyes piercing into hers.

"Just leave me, Y/N. Your presence suffocates me! I don't want to see your face. So please, leave me alone. Why do you always stick to me like glue? Don't you understand? Just leave me alone, forever. I don't want you in my life," he spat out, his words cutting through her like knives. With that, he stormed off to his room, leaving her utterly shattered.

His harsh words echoed in her ears, causing unbearable pain. Tears streamed down her face uncontrollably. He had broken her, beyond repair. She was strong, but now, she was weary. Weary from enduring the pain he inflicted on her, over and over again.

Y/n's life had always been tough, with no love from her parents and now from her first love. She held onto the hope that things would get better, that someday she would find happiness, but it never happened. Now, she was completely exhausted.

Tears streamed down her cheeks as she thought about how miserable her life had become. There was nothing good left for her. Hopelessly, she collapsed on the ground, feeling shattered. The pain of the broken pieces of crockeries digging into her skin didn't even bothered her. With trembling hands, she placed them on the floor.

"Why..." she began to speak softly.

"Why does this always happen to me? Don't I deserve to be happy or loved, even just once, God? What did I do to deserve this kind of pain? I don't know how much more I can take," she confessed, her voice trembling with exhaustion. Tears continued to fall uncontrollably as her hands started to bleed from the broken pieces. Her whole body ached, and she trembled with shivers.

 As the tears continued to flow, she felt a sense of exhaustion wash over her, dragging her down into the depths of despair. She was tired of fighting, tired of hoping for a love and care that would never be returned.

"He..." she began to speak again, her voice trembling with pain.

"He didn't love me, God. He doesn't love me. I thought he might be starting to feel something for me. I thought he was beginning to care. I thought everything was finally returning to normal... but I was so wrong," she stated, her words heavy with disappointment. She paused for a moment, her heartache evident in her silence.

"Nothing's going to change. Everything is the same as it's always been. He's still the same, and I failed. I couldn't change him."

She paused again, her breaths coming in ragged gasps. With tears streaming down her face, she shook her head, unable to hold back the flood of emotions.

"He doesn't love me, God. He doesn't love me the way I love him. He doesn't care for me the way I care for him. His heart doesn't skip a beat at the sight of me like my does at his. My presence suffocates him... What do I do? I think it's my punishment for hoping that something good would happen with me. I can't do this. I just can't..." Despite knowing she wasn't at fault, she couldn't help but blame herself.

"And he wants me to leave him forever, God. He doesn't want me to see myself to him again. He doesn't want me in his life," she added, her voice breaking with the realization of his rejection.