Under the Shades of Sky

Chapter 32

"Please, Deia..." Nate said as he continuously knocked on my door.

I'm in my room, sitting and hugging a pillow sprayed with Aria's cologne. It feels like Aria was hugging me whenever her scent was close.

"Please talk to me... I'm sorry for not telling you sooner. I don't like seeing you hurting, lyubov. Please open the door." he said again.

I am trying to calm myself.

"LIMUELLE! PLEASE STOP KNOCKING THE DAMN DOOR! PLEASE GIVE ME SPACE!" sigaw ko at muling umiyak ng tahimik.

I heard no knocks after i said that. I need space to grieve alone...Kahit sandali lang...kahit ilang minuto lang. Alam kong magwawala lang ako kung mananatili akong nasa labas. Kilala ko ang sarili ko, hindi ligtas na may kasama akong iba kapag galit ako. It would be a great chaos and I don't want to hurt them. Pagkatapos ng ilang minuto may narinig akong marahang katok sa pinto. Tumayo ako at binuksan iyon.

Ysabelle.

She was holding a lot of foods. May sushi, magnum ice cream, potato corner fries at marami pang iba. She looks like she was offering a peace offering to me. Pinapasok ko siya kahit na humihikbi pa ako. Agad kong isinara ang pinto ng makapasok siya. Dali-dali nya namang nilagay ang mga pagkain sa study table ko bago ako niyakap ng mahigpit.

"I'm sorry, Tine. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings.'' She apologized. "I should be more careful with my words." her voice cracked. Ysabelle was taller than me. I mean she was always taller than me, I was 5 '9 and she was 5' 11.

"Hey... don't cry." malambing kong saad. "Apology accepted na." sabi ko at niyakap din siya.

"Hayaan mo na...I'm sorry if I stormed to my room too. I know I'm overwhelmed by my emotions and I know what will happen if I let it rule me. It would be chaotic." I said then chuckled.

Kumalas siya sa yakap at bumungad sakin ang mangiyak-ngiyak niyang mga mata. "Ayos na tayo?" she asked and i nodded to assure her that we are now okay.

"It's better to be hurt by a painful truth that to be blinded with a beautiful lie. Mabuti nga at nalaman ko... dapat pala talaga may interest din ako sa media." i joked.

She chuckled before arranging our foods. "Kumain na tayo, baka magutom ka nyan."

"Si Nate, may pagkain ba sa labas?" tanong ko.

"Meron. Siya nga nagpadeliver nito eh para daw sayo. Yung ramen lang talaga ang pinadeliver ko." saad niya.

Napatango na lang ako. Mamaya ko na lang siya kakausapin. Naguilty tuloy ako. But just then, a great idea came into my mind. "How about let's have a video call with Lexa?" I said as I grabbed my tablet.

"Why not? Online yon ngayon." she said.

Tinawagan ko siya sa group chat namin. Weird that Gab didn't accept the call and she still seen all of our messages. Ilang beses na namin siyang kinakamusta through chat pero wala talaga. Not a minute passed, Alexa answered.

"Gaga! Amadeia Celestine Romero! Sinasabi ko sayo! Bakit hindi ka nagsasabi sakin?! Parang hindi tayo magpinsan ah!" bungad sakin ni Alexa pero natigil ng makitang magkasama kami ni Ysabelle.

"Teka! Bakit magkasama kayo ni Ysabelle? Mga madadaya! Tayong tatlo na nga lang sa Pilipinas tapos iiwanan nyo pa ako!" she bursted like a kid. "Kung nandito lang si Mom sasabihin ko kayo! Iniiwan ninyo ako!" himutok pa ni Alexa.

I smiled bitterly but in a joking manner. "Sige, lumipad ka mula Pampanga papunta here."

"Baliw ka talaga kahit kailan, Amadeia." Alexa commented and smiled. "Anong chismis? Bakit hindi mo sinabi na may new cousin na pala kami ni Ysabelle? Tsaka bakit ganyan mga mukha ninyo. Parang namatayan na ewan."