A Melody of You: Book Five

Leanne

I love being in the library. But it feels different with Yujun across from me.

I was a bit tipsy the night before with Cristina. I slept over at her place and then quickly changed into an outfit she had in her closet after waking up late. I decided not to wake her up. I didn't want to see her sad eyes again.

I'm not disappointed. I'm just scared for her. She's letting this man in so quickly and she doesn't seem to understand how dangerous this can be. But who am I to talk? I'm confused myself and I can barely let my own emotions in my heart.

Then Yujun waits for me at the front of the library with two coffees in hand. The sun suddenly seems to come out from behind the gloomy clouds with his grin and bright eyes. Letting him give me a small side hug is like feeling a soft breeze give my lungs new life.

Concentrate.

I have always been good at blocking out my own thoughts when concentrating on work. It helped as I started my research and printed out various options for Yujun. I showed him a sample review letter and helped him develop points for his letter. As I looked up more letter examples, he stopped writing and looked at me. I looked back at him and saw a gentle smile on his lips that made his eyes glisten behind his glasses.

I blinked with a blank expression and he warmly said, "Thank you for your time to help me."

"Sure," I softly said. "I just want you to be okay and not stressed anymore."

He quietly chuckled and nodded. "I'm okay now. I promise."

"Okay." I closed my laptop and he scooted closer to my side. I didn't get mad at the way he tried to be by my side. I wish he was with me like this all the time.

Concentrate!

I quickly looked away from his twinkling eyes and started to pick my things up. He then said, "I don't want to go."

"Where?"

"To Korea."

I give him a warm nod. "I know but you have to do this, Yujun. This is what it means to be a doctor and a business owner, too."

"I know," he said with a soft sigh. His brown eyes then burned through me as he whispered, "I wish you could come with me."

"What?" I couldn't help but snort and say, "Why? Go have fun while you're there. You deserve some rest after all this stress."

He smiled at my words but his eyes carried small sadness. I didn't understand why until he said, "I need you..."

He was scared to say it but he still did.

Silence. The world went completely silent and still at those words. They don't mean much. They shouldn't. But he made it mean so much more when he did not look away. I could see the certainty of those words in his eyes and Cristina's words came back to me in that moment.

Is the sound beautiful enough to risk it all?

The sound of my heart began to faintly come into my ears and I quickly pushed it away. But it lingered even as we quietly walked together. We went to get lunch after that and I watched him from afar as I waited for him at a table. I wondered...

Would he really want someone like me? I wouldn't even date myself. Gosh. It's true what Cristina says. I do have red flags and my trust issues can be toxic. Will he grow tired of me? I know I would. It must be the reason why they all left. That's why Joey stopped talking to me again.

Is this real enough to make me cry? I don't know why my heart trembles the moment he says goodbye to me. He looked for me all day and nurses kept telling me that Yujun was looking for me. For the first time since we've met, I looked for him. I walked through all the hallways and I visited the neurology department twice. It seemed like we kept crossing paths every single time and missed each other.