- BANGCHAN
His smile, his laugh, everything about him was so close to perfect. You sat next to him hoping he could just feel the way your heart pounded in your chest just 2 inches away from him on this couch. It was devastating that you liked him this much yet the thought of him not being in your life caused such panic and dismay you couldn't bring yourself to tell him. You really wanted to but the somber brought by the thought of losing him was enough to keep you up at night.
"Hey (Y/n) what are you doing this weekend?" He finally turned to look at you. For a millisecond you got lost in his big beautiful eyes. Your throat got slightly dry and it was hard to swallow as he stared at you waiting for an answer.
"Well just the usual" you replied looking away. You start to feel like you are sweating and panic thinking he saw right through you.
"So nothing?" He asked leaning in a little closer to you. You could feel your heart speed up and your cheeks flush as he got closer.
"Yeah, nothing as always" You chuckled fiddling with your bracelet. "Why?"
"Well, I need you to cover for me. I'm going on a date and possibly staying the night so I need you to please tell everyone IF they ask that I am staying with you." Your heart shattered into a million pieces almost becoming sand. You smiled but your eyes watered causing you to look away to blink the tears away. You took a deep breath and stood up feeling the tears threaten even more.
You were tired, tired of overthinking, tired of trying so hard to hide everything, tired of not being enough for him.
"I don't think I can do that for you. I am sorry!" you reached the door and felt a hand on your shoulder. You didn't want to talk to him, you didn't even want to look at him knowing it would push your overflowing tears to drop down your face.
"I don't understand" He whispered. He hated when you cried or looked sad, but right now nothing would make it better as he was the cause of all this.
"You never will" your voice cracked as the first tear freed itself and tipped over the brim of your eye.
"Please tell me... Something has been off for a while and I can feel it so please" he whispered begging a little. He was desperate to help you fix whatever was causing you such misery.
"You Chan... I'm in love with you but I fear losing you and the worst thing is that... I'm tired of helping you go on dates. I can't take much more." Your voice decreased and the tears created a waterfall down both of your cheeks. You turned to look at him and his face fell. The truth was out and all the ugly that came with it surfaced.
"(Y/N) I- I didn't know" he tried to reach out for you but you moved away. You knew you would melt if he touched you.
"Of course you didn't. The fear of losing you from my life permanently had me so afraid I thought I couldn't even breathe around you most of the time." Chan pulled you closer in a tight hug as you sobbed. He was shaking almost as much as you.
"(Y/n) please calm down so we can talk about this." You shook your head taking a deep breath and wiping the tears with the sleeve of your sweater.
"I don't want to be rejected so I need to walk away for a few days." You tried to push away from him but his grip on your waist got tighter.
"Rejection?" He asked frantically. You nod preparing for the worst.
"I'm not for you and I am now finally realizing that so please let me go." Chan tightened his grip shaking his head. You opened your mouth to protest again but he cut you off.
His soft warm lips pressed against yours. You sobbed even more as he held you closer removing one of his hands from your waist to cup your face. Chan pulled away pecking your lips one more time before pecking your forehead and wiping the tears off your cheeks.
"You won't lose me and now even less. You are stuck with me for a long time now. By the way... dinner at your place this weekend. I'm staying the WHOLE weekend" He chuckled causing you to chuckle as well.
"You are out of your mind Christopher." You sniffled hitting his chest.
"Mm Maybe, but I've liked you for a while and I am just happy to finally hear that you feel the same." He leaned in again kissing you. This time you reciprocated and moved your lips against his as well.
