- BANG CHAN
"This is just for fun nothing serious and no strings attached!"
"Deal you call we fuck I call we fuck no questions asked!"
"Deal now take your clothes off baby girl"
5 months ago you and Christopher made a deal to just fuck without the complications of feelings and a relationship. The friendship was still there and actually got stronger but all of that caused complications in other places of your life. Finding someone to live up to the standards of Christopher was almost impossible and you contemplated ending it. Did you have feelings for him? No, you didn't think so anyway.
"Hey look at Channie Hyung flirting with that pretty girl over there. He's really getting into it" Everyone's heads turn to the doorway where Chan was making this one girl laugh while her hand was on his bare bicep. Heather smiled so big his eyes disappeared and his dimples appeared. You felt this weird rage fill the core of your body but you just turned your head back to your phone and minded your own business.
"Oh, I think (y/n) Noona is jealous!" Seungmin pokes fun but you look at him over the top of your glasses making him stop laughing and hide behind Lee Know who hides behind Changbin.
"Why would I be jealous of something that is not mine and I have no feelings for?" You ask a little too aggressively causing Changbin to take 2 steps away from you.
"We were just joking we know that!" Changbin tries to do damage control but you are unfairly irritated at them and take a deep breath to calm down.
"I know I'm sorry. I think imma go home I'm tired and a bit hungry. I'll see you guys later" Leaving without telling Christopher and getting home you throw your keys on the counter and lay on the couch.
Did you have feelings for Chris? You didn't think so but you never thought about it.
🐺: You left and didn't say anything
💙: you were busy
🐺: still could have said bye or something or even texted me
💙: I'm home don't worry
🐺: are you okay
💙: Christopher I'm fine
🐺: doesn't sound like it. I heard the convo with the boys. Are you mad that they teased you about being jealous
💙: can't be jealous of something that's not mine but no I was hungry I just ate and feel better already
🐺: take better care of yourself, please
💙: will do
Your contact was limited with him after that day. He was too busy so he hadn't contacted you and you had needed some space so you had thrown yourself into your work and hobbies.
Before you knew it you were back where you started. Sitting on the couch of their break room at work with Seungmin on one side of you and Changbin on the other catching up on the last few weeks of not seeing each other. You had ordered food for the 3 of you so on the way up from getting it at the entrance you met up with a new employee that insisted on walking you up.
"I'm actually here eating with some friends thanks for walking me up though!" You thanked him with a genuine smile on your face.
"Can we exchange numbers? I would love to maybe take you to dinner or something" The blush on his cheeks caused you to cave and hand him your phone. He set the food on the table for you and Seungmin came up to start opening everything.
"We'll talk I guess" you chuckle as he waves bye and walks out of the room.
"Channie Hyung is Jealous" Seungmin whispers handing you your food. You look behind him at everyone being extra quiet since he looked visibly mad and that scared everyone.
"Not because of me right?" Seungmin kissed your cheek and thanked you for the food not responding to your question. Sitting down next to Chan you ask him if he wants a bite of your food. Bringing the fork up to his lips he takes a bite but then gets upset and disappears.
Hours later he appears at your front door. Not giving you a chance to say 'hi' or even 'come in' he slams his lips into yours and straight to the bedroom you both go. Everything felt weird and emotionless as if he was distant and mad as well.
Thrusting into you from behind something he hated doing because he thought looking at your face was better. You could hear him mumbling something incoherently under his breath. His grip on your hips tightens and his thrusts get faster and sloppier.
"Tell me you're mine... tell me you belong to me!" He growls as both your highs rapidly approach.
"Chris" you gasp as your orgasm overtakes your sense and he reaches his climax as well. You both lay there panting coming down from cloud 9 that felt a bit too grey to enjoy.
"I'm sorry I have to go!" He quickly puts his clothes on but you follow him out quickly pulling an oversized shirt over your head. Your heart was racing and your thoughts were all jumbled but you knew if he left you would never talk to him again due to how he just made you feel right now.
"Christopher Chan Bang if you walk out that door without telling me what the hell that was all about you are not allowed back." He stood there hands balled up in fist shaking his head as he took a deep breath and turned around to face you.
"I was jealous and I don't know why! I have no right to be mad! You are not mine we are not together but the way he just... the way he asked you on a date so confidently in front of everyone and flirted so openly. It made me feel this unexplainable rage and I just... I can't explain it. I'm sorry..." you sigh as he sits on the couch burying his face in his hands not understanding his own emotions.
"I felt the same way. When that one girl was touching all up on you. But I didn't do what you just did. I just felt so used. Even when we started this with no strings attached it was never cold and emotionless like that. You never made me feel used like you just did. With that being said... I will be yours if you want me to be. I will tell you I am your and only yours... but that's a big commitment you have to be 100% sure you want and are ready for... because Christopher... I don't want to get hurt." You take his hands from his face and kneel in front of him. He takes your face in his hands and rubs your cheeks with his thumb. His eyes are glossy and his gaze softens when you smile at him.
"I promise the goal is marriage." He connects his forehead with yours rubbing the tip of his nose with yours before leaning in to kiss you.
"I'm yours and only yours" you whisper on his lips. He sighs in relief, relaxing, and chuckling into the kiss trying to pull you closer into him but you were already as close as you could have been.
"That's all I have ever wanted to hear!" He mumbles pecking your forehead.
"That's all I've ever wanted to be" you whisper burying your face in his chest.
