- CHANGBIN
"Changbin hold still I am almost done," I whined for the millionth time as I sat with my legs crossed in front of him on his bed. I kept glancing at his lips which were distracting me so it took me longer than I wanted.
"Hurry up then, You are making me want to kiss you being this close to me!" He said impatiently, wiggling like a child. I was plucking his eyebrows again this month. He always says I didn't hurt him like the stylist did and I knew the right shape for his face. I thought it was bullshit but I didn't mind doing it.
"2 more hairs and I am done" I grunted getting closer to his face. "See all done, get all the wiggles out now" I put my tweezers down and picked up a tissue with micellar water to wipe his face clean.
"Thank you," He says, laying down flat and stretching a little. I cleaned up the area around me and watched him get back on his phone. I stole a few glances before finally speaking up.
"Are you not going to check them?" | asked, confused, putting my things back in my makeup bag.
"No you always do them how I like it so why would I check?" He sat up and connected our knees again sitting in the position we were sitting in before. His hands landed on my knees as he looked over my features adoringly. I could feel myself blushing from his loving stare that was green today because of his contacts.
"Okay well, I have to go so text me later." I proceeded to attempt to get off the bed but was stopped and pulled back into my sitting position. His left hand ran down my arm from my shoulder until his fingertips reached mine.
"Hang out for a little! I haven't been able to hang out with you for a long time. It's like you have been avoiding me or something." He whined all cutely making me smile and give in. I had been secretly avoiding him for many reasons.
The main one being... It was getting much harder and much more painful to keep fighting my feelings for him. It hurt my heart to see him not give up and for my heart to yearn for him, but my stupid head clouded my judgment as soon as the fear of things getting real set in.
"Fine, what do you want to do?" I asked, looking around for my phone. I could feel the atmosphere thicken around us as I turned my attention back to him.
"Well let's talk..." I was intrigued by the tone he said that in. I raised my eyebrows so he would keep talking.
"Okay? What do you want to talk about?" I asked when he didn't get the hint.
"Why do you keep rejecting me? I have been pursuing you for a year and 4 months..." I knew this conversation was going to come up eventually and just didn't think it would be this soon. I kept thinking of what to say and all the flashbacks of my last relationship flooded my brain.
Changbin has been pursuing me for a while but I kept rejecting him. I gave him lame excuses but it was obvious I felt the same way. I didn't want to open up completely just yet because I wasn't ready. The good thing is he never made me feel pressured even with all the time that has passed.
"Look, let me be 100% transparent. I like you! It's obvious both our feelings are mutual but..* He quickly cut me off, waving his hands in the air.
"No, but... just fall please... I'll catch you and hold on to you tightly." I shook my head trying not to fall for those words but it was already becoming super painful to fight. The safe around my heart was already in pieces I just needed to open the chains and fully let him in.
"... but I am not right for you. I would cause you to lose so much. You would be laughed at by everyone... I don't want that for you." He took my hand in his and kissed the top of it.
