Jaylen Evans

Funeral Part 1

I got up and went downstairs.
Jay: morning trouble
I just ignored him
Kelly: Jaylen?
I walked out and went to see Diego. I walked to his house
Antonio: what's up Jaylen?
Jaylen: is Diego here?
Antonio: yeah come in. He's in the kitchen
I walked in and went to the kitchen
Diego: why you in your pyjamas?
Jaylen: everyone was pissing me off
Diego: fairs
Jaylen: can I hang here?
Diego: sure
Antonio: I had Jay on the phone. What's going on?
Jaylen: nothing
Diego: so when did you get back?
Jaylen: yesterday.
Diego: how long you here for?
Jaylen: until after the funeral
Diego: that's today
Jaylen: thanks for reminding me
Diego: Jaylen im-
Jaylen: I'm messing
Diego: shouldn't you be getting ready?
Jaylen: I'm not going
Antonio: Lena's coming to get you
Diego: who's Lena?
Jaylen: my foster mom
Diego: oh okay. Why's she here? Aren't you old enough to get on a flight yourself?
Jaylen: I am but I can't because of my epilepsy
Diego: oh fairs. About the funeral you're going
Jaylen: no I'm not
Diego: This is your time to say goodbye
Jaylen: but I don't want to say goodbye
Diego: but Jay
Jaylen: I'm not talking about it Diego
Diego: Jaylen
Jaylen: fuck off Diego
I walked out of the house and Lena was outside with Jay.
Lena: come on Jaylen

I got in the car and Jay drove home. I walked in and went up to my room. I grabbed the shoebox from under my bed and rolled a joint. I lit it and opened my window. I sat down and was looking through the pictures of mom and dad. There was a knock at the door
Jaylen: fuck off
Kelly walked in
Kelly: nope this is not what we're doing. Give it to me
Jaylen: No!
Kelly: I'm not messing Jaylen. We're supposed to be leaving in 2 hours
Jaylen: I'm not going
Kelly: what do you mean you're not going? It's your parents funeral
Jaylen: I said I'm not going now fuck off
Kelly: give me the joint
Jaylen: no
I pushed Kelly out of my room and I slammed the door. I finished my joint.
Jay: Jaylen come here
Jaylen: I'm not going and you can't make me go!

Lena pov
We heard a door slam shut and Kelly came downstairs
Jay: what's going on?
Kelly: he's smoking weed and he's adamant that he's not going to the funeral
Lena: what do we do?
Jay: I don't know. We have less than 2 hours. Jaylen come here!
Jaylen: I'm not going and you can't make me go!
There were thuds upstairs and down the stairs. We went out to the hallway and Jaylen was throwing things down the stairs. He was having a complete meltdown. We just stood there not knowing how to intervene.
Kelly: Jaylen come on let's calm down. You're gonna hurt yourself.
Jaylen: I don't fucking care
Lena: well we do. Please stop
His breakdown continues and he was so worked up and it was horrible to see. We didn't know how to help. I made my way upstairs avoiding everything he was throwing.
Jaylen: fuck off! Leave me alone!
His face was red and angry tears were streaming down his face.
Lena: I can see you've got yourself worked up but you need to take a breath and calm down
Jaylen: I'm not going to that fucking funeral.
Lena: but don't you want to say goodbye?
Jaylen: that's not gonna change anything! They're both gonna be 6 ft deep. Nothing I say can change that! So what's the point?!
I looked around the room and there was glass everywhere.
Lena: let me see your hand
He shook his head
Lena: come on Jaylen let me help you
He gave me his hand and it was littered in cuts and there were even some glass shards embedded in his hand.
Lena: do you know where the first aid kit is?
Jaylen: downstairs
He was still pacing with anger. I ran and got the first aid kit and went back up. I sorted out his hand and bandaged it up.
Lena: how you feeling?
Jaylen: i don't wanna talk
Lena: Jaylen
Jaylen: I'm not going
Lena: let's just take a breath okay. Let's just calm down. 5 deep breaths for me okay
He was beginning to be a lot calmer.
Lena: how about you get dressed into the suit?
Jaylen: I'm not going
Lena: please
Jaylen: if it will shut everyone up
I went downstairs.
Kelly: how is he?
Lena: he's calmed down but he's not budging about the funeral.
Kelly: we have less than an hour to get there
Jaylen walked down the stairs. He was in the suit minus the tie. He was also wearing black air forces.

Kelly pov
Kelly: Jaylen let's go for a walk
I took my keys and waited for Jaylen outside. He came out and we started walking.
Kelly: talk to me. What's going on in that head of yours?
Jaylen: I can't say goodbye. If I say goodbye then I'm saying goodbye forever.
Kelly: if you don't go you're gonna regret it. Even if you just watch from far. Just show up.
Jaylen: I can't do it.
Kelly: we'll be with you every step of the way. You're not going through it alone. We're all here for you
Jaylen: do you think they'll be mad at me for not going?
Kelly: they'll never be mad at you kiddo. But they wouldn't want you to miss the opportunity to say goodbye. They wouldn't want you to regret not going.
Jaylen: but going makes all this real. I can't say goodbye to them.
Kelly: you can. Just go to the funeral. If it gets too much you can go outside. Does that sound okay?
Jaylen: I guess. Who's going?
Kelly: well everyone from the district, med and firehouse 51. Miss Greene. Loads of people.
Jaylen: is grandma and grandpa gonna be there?
Kelly: Hank reached out to them but there was no response.
Jaylen: oh okay. Can we go back home?
Kelly: sure
We walked back home and Jay and Lena were sat on the couch talking.
Jaylen: I'm sorry for earlier. It wasn't fair.
Jay: it's okay kiddo. I understand how you're feeling but you need to find ways to calm down before you explode.
Jaylen: I know I'm sorry
Lena: You ready for the funeral
Jaylen: No but let's just get it over with