Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

5 - She Got Her Kisses

"Kiss me, P'Mor."

I widened my eyes when I felt my heart beating frantically just from the thought of kissing her out of the set. 'It's just for practice, Ling. Pull yourself together. Get into character.'

Blinking for a split second, I pour out all of my pleasant feelings for her through my eyes. "Nong Earn."

Slowly leaning in, I took every inch of her skin and memorized her by heart, especially her luscious lips which looked so soft. I wanted to kiss her so bad.

Like I was tending to a fragile glass that would break at any time, I touched her lips with mine as I kissed her slowly, from her bottom to her upper lip and then fully on her lips.

Moving my body to lay on top of her again, our lips never leave each other as my hand caressed the side of her head tenderly. I wanted to make sure she felt even better so I pecked her lips for one last time as I kissed my way down to her neck which made her gasp for air.

"Should I continue?"

"Yes, please."

'It's just a practice, Ling. Do it by the script only, not more. Stay professional.'

My mind kept on reminding me when my heart tried so badly to not react to Orm's moan when I kissed her chest from outside of her thin clothes.

But then, it was Orm who could not hold her ground as she grabbed my arms to stop me. "Just kiss my lips, please."

Being so whipped for her, I immediately complied with her wishes only to be welcomed by her biting my bottom lip which made me shudder with want.

"Nong?"

"Deeper, P'Mor."

'Right. I'm P'Mor, not P'Ling. I'm P'Mor.'

Swallowing my disappointment, I closed my eyes and caressed her hips to make her gasp so I could take the chance to slip my tongue into her warm cavern. I groaned when I heard her moan in my mouth as I caressed her tongue with my own, kissing her over and over again.

I did not think we ever stop kissing each other that day. Practicing was successfully done.

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"We arrived at your home." I linger my gaze on her who also cannot take her eyes off me.

"Yeah, so fast."

"Hmm..." Enjoying her thumb that is caressing the back of my hand, I pat her head with my other free hand. "How do you feel after we shot our first love scene?"

Orm immediately blushes hard which makes me pout my lips at her adoring face. "You know, I'm still shy. You're the first person I ever filmed that far in front of the camera. Being on top of me and all."

I believe my eye smile is showing up unapologetically as I press my forehead on hers to tease her. "My Nong Orm is shy, huh?"

"Yes, P'Ling! I'm shy."

"Should we practice more so you won't be shy anymore, hmm?"

She shakes her head and hits my shoulder playfully because I am making her even more shy which I find so so so damn adorable.

Lifting her waist easily but never failing to make her scream in shock, I place her down safely on my lap so I can rest my head on her chest, searching for her warmth. "Close friends hugs and cuddles, right? I'm not breaking any boundaries, right?"

"Hmm..." She nods and kisses the side of my head, soothing my headache that appeared after the shooting finished.

Sighing in satisfaction, I breathe out, "I'm recharged again, Nong Orm. Only you who has that effect on me. Thank you."

"Don't thank me, P'Ling. Because I'm recharged too, just by having you here with me."

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I do not know how I can shoot this scene. I honestly do not know.

I do not know if I can handle listening to her saying hurtful things to me although I know it is only for acting, it is not real.

But, still...

So eventually, I break down so freaking bad. I cry so hard and I scream in agony, trying hard to let out the pain inside my chest that seems so real.

'Don't leave me, Orm. Please don't leave me, I can't live without you, please. Orm, please...'

"P'Ling, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. The director yelled CUT already, we got the shot already, so please don't cry anymore. P'Ling..."

I embrace her in my arms immediately as she never stops wiping my tears away that still cannot stop falling. "Your acting is so good, Orm. I thought...I thought you were leaving me for real, that's why, I...I can't stop一" I choke on my tears which makes Orm look even worried.

She grabs the side of my head gently to bury my face on her neck as she rubs my back to calm me down. "I'll not leave you, P'Ling. Nong is going to stick beside you, alright? I'll stay with you. You're not going to lose me, Ling."

Pulling away to look at her face, I just let out everything that comes up and speak through my heart.

"Prove it to me. Take good care of me, please."

"What do you want me to do now, Lingling? I can see your eyes are screaming for something." She leans in to whisper in my ear to press her point, "And I'm sure only I can give it to you."

Challenging her with my long-lasting gaze on her, I whisper back in my husky voice from all the crying, "Do it then. What am I asking for, Orm?"

With a determined look on her face, she gently helps me get on my feet so she can guide us to somewhere safer where no other eyes can see us. Leaning her body against the wall, I am being pulled by my waist to get closer to her as she utters softly, "Let's practice our kissing scene, P'Mor."

You really know what I want, Orm.

When I am about to lean in first, her finger on my lips stops me so being her good girl, I halt my movement. Mesmerized by her loving smile, I smile back at her like a tamed tiger, waiting for her next move.

Circling her arms around my waist, she closes her eyes and then lands her lips against mine in a tender way. I feel my body is floating right now with how she caresses my lips so gently and soft. She knows when to pause and when to just let our lips mold together perfectly. Is that your way to show that you care for me, Orm?

"Why do you stop, Nong?"

The desperate look in her eyes will forever be engraved in my heart. Acting or not, practicing or not, is it real or not, I do not care. She is holding my heart in her hands. Which, I like a lot.

You like it to the extent you want her to yourself, right?

Finding myself pondering about that thought that came up suddenly, I bite my lip to remind myself; that when it comes to Orm, I need to make sure I am all in, I don't want to be selfish and make rash decisions that can hurt her in the end. She is that precious to me.

When I am back from my trance to listen to Orm saying her next words with a tender tone, I'm dying inside.

"Tell me that you want me. Tell me that you feel it too, please."

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