Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

16 - Open Up Is Easy With Her

For me, the most intimate thing in a relationship is not only how we feel each other's love when we are connected physically, but when I can show her my vulnerable sides—my traumas that I have kept hidden all this time—and open up to her.

The latter part is the most difficult for me. But my Orm, she makes it feel so easy.

"Tell me more about yourself, P'Ling. I'm all ears, I want to listen to your soothing voice all the time."

Feeling so warm and welcoming by her smile and how she caresses my hair gently, I tighten my arms around her waist while comfortably resting my head on her lap.

"Being the first daughter like you, I have learned to be independent at such a young age. Both my parents see me as someone who's wise so they tend to share their concerns with me, even when I was just an elementary student. That's why, I could see the real side of the world ever since I was just a kid and as I knew about the struggle that my parents have, I chose to not burden them more by not sharing my own problems. I chose to deal with it by myself."

"And when I was old enough to move abroad, I chose that too, with a determination to earn more for my family. Aside from being an actress, I did so many kinds of jobs but only after working with you, my Nong, I can get some recognition that I am so thankful for." I close my eyes when I feel her kissing my forehead for a moment. She then nods while smiling softly, signaling me to continue.

"I was like a bull who kept on chasing my goals as I am the breadwinner for my family, but lately I realize there's someone more important to me than anything, someone who I am afraid of losing, someone who I care the most since the first time we met. And that someone is you."

Orm seemed to be taken aback when I suddenly mentioned her but she has become a part of me now. The story of my life would always include her. "Stay with me please, Nong Orm." I bury my face in her flat tummy, feeling shy after telling her all that.

Her sweet voice keeps on ringing in my mind as she presses her cheek on top of my head.

She tells me, "I'm not only staying P'Ling, I belong to you. We've been apart before but we found each other again. My love for you will always remain the same or even more. Do you feel the same way, Tee rak?"

I don't waste any second to kiss her lips gently.

Through my kiss, I want to give her the answer with my action too as I touch her lips softly at a slow pace. And as always, our lips mold together so perfectly like we are two puzzles that are meant to be put together. Giving her a couple of small pecks afterward, I then rub our cute noses together which makes us giggle with joy.

"I'm glad that I found you, my darling. I love you the most, always."

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"Nong Orm, are you alright? Darling? I'm here, your P'Ling is here."

My blurry vision starts to gradually turn to normal as I see my beautiful woman in front of me. However, I still feel the wetness on my cheeks that is caused by my tears. That nightmare again.

I immediately wrap my arms around her so I can lean against her chest. I know she must be so concerned right now. "I'm sorry, P'Ling. I scared you, didn't I?"

Her soothing eyes that are fighting hard to hold back her tears make me feel a tug at my heartstrings. "P'Ling, say something please..."

"Is there...something traumatic that you haven't fully recovered from, Nong?"

P'Ling reaches out her hand to wipe my tears but I do not realize they are still falling. Staring at her, someone I love deeply, I am contemplating whether I should share something that pains me because I know that would pain her too. Seeing her hurting feels like tearing my heart apart and I know she also feels the same way the other way around.