Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

21 - She Is Stronger Than I Thought

LingOrm will start to film a new series. And the genre is action-romance.

When we got this news, I was so excited for us. I was also so glad to see my younger girlfriend smiling ear to ear when she heard her role was being an idol, so she'll take some dancing lessons that I know she loves.

Me? I'll take some martial art lessons that I am also passionate about. And that's how I truly felt.

But then as days pass by, I start to feel my work and the additional lessons I need to take are consuming my whole being.

I have felt burned out before but this time it is more intense. It affects my ability to control my emotions too, especially anger. And that drives me even crazier because I have a calm personality so feeling myself boiling with anger almost everyday is slowly taking a toll on me.

I even try to protect Orm from myself as I am afraid I would say or do something that I do not mean because I am not in a good state. But I forgot, my lover is an actual angel who can always figure out her way to love me no matter how bad my situation or my mood is.

"P'Ling, come here, please."

Hearing her soothing voice, as I look at her soft smile, my gaze also greets her eyes that are filled with warmth and love.

Automatically, I find myself moving towards her like a fragile little butterfly that flies to rest on a beautiful blooming flower.

She takes me by my waist as I fully lean my body against her while letting out a sigh of relief when I feel her arms hugging me tightly.

"Lingling has been working so hard all this time, it isn't only exhausting but also draining all of my love's energy and affecting her emotions, is it?"

I nod as I search for Orm's scent that can calm my whole being. Grasping the comfort of her soft fingers running through my long hair, I also notice her heartbeat beating alongside mine.

"The always calm and peaceful P'Ling is confused as to why the heaviness inside her chest is getting even worse even after she tried to take some rest and nurture herself. And she is afraid she would hurt her Nong, too, if she is not in her best state."

How can she know everything without me telling her?

"What she doesn't know about is, her beloved Nong is ready to see all of her. Her best state, her sorrow, her fear, her anger, her lowest moment. She is ready and she would tell her P'Ling if she gets hurt in the process because nobody is perfect. People make mistakes, including people who are in love. So it's alright, my love. It's okay to not be okay."

Orm leans back a little to kiss my cheek as she rubs her cute nose on mine. "Let me be the place for you to rest. You're not alone, P'Ling. You don't need to cry alone all the time."

Just like a wave that is surging inside me, I let it all out through my tears that comes out tremendously, making me tremble in her arms as I sob relentlessly. Having her here to embrace me in her arms seems kinda foreign to me who is used to leaning on myself and having others lean on me. But now, I have her.

"Remember, my love, you have me now, alright? So don't bottle it all up, let it all go with me by your side. I know it might seem scary too for you to lean on someone but it's me, your Nong. Your lover."

Kissing my forehead delicately as she wipes my tears away gently, she guides me towards the sofa so I can lay on her lap as she cradles me like a baby. "Your eyes must feel so heavy from all of the crying, aren't they? Let them rest, then, P'Ling. Close your eyes and just listen to my voice, alright? Don't think of anything, let your overloaded mind rest, too."