Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

24 - Never Been This Painful

"I miss you. When can I see you again?"

My heart sank when I heard Nong Orm's sad voice through the call. We have not seen each other for almost two weeks now with me having shooting schedules outside of Bangkok. This also marks the first time we have been away from each other this long after we lived together.

I can still recall her eyes that wanted to tell me not to go but chose not to say it out loud so I would not feel bad.

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Fumbling with my suitcases, I was doing a final check to see if everything was settled only to realize my lover who helped me pack disappeared with no trace. Her scent was also gone already. Did I being too focused that I did not even realize she was not here with me?

"Nong Orm" I made my way out of my bedroom and tried to search for her but to no avail, I still could not find her. She was not even inside her favorite room, which was our rooftop.

As I took my car keys and prepared to go out without stopping calling her phone, I halted in my step when I saw her sitting on the bench facing a small pond in my yard. I knew she was crying by noticing how her shoulder would not stop shaking.

With the same forlorn eyes, I walked towards my lover and called her name softly before hugging her from behind so I would not scare her. "Nong Orm..."

Her silent cries started to sound much louder when she realized I was there with her. I guess she was trying to compose herself so she came here to search for air, as well as suppressing her tears. But as she felt safe in my arms like this, she let all her emotions out freely.

Gradually moving to her front while making sure our hands still entangled together, I kneeled in front of her so I could clearly see her beautiful face and those light brown orbs. With a gentle tone, I told her honestly, "P'Ling is going to miss you a lot too, Nong."

Orm could not help but let out a small giggle in between her tears when she saw me pout exaggeratedly. I smiled when I knew I succeeded in making her laugh although she was still crying. That showed how soft her kind heart was, she felt emotions on a deeper level.

"You must think I'm such a child right, P'Ling? You're only away for two weeks, it's not like for years. But I'm already crying like a mess."

I frowned and immediately shook my head as I sat next to her so I could hug her in my arms. "I still remember when I was little, I would not stop crying when I knew my mom would not be home for a week. Or when I knew my dad would not come home at night as he had work. Even if I left Hong Kong these days after visiting my family to come back to Thailand, there's still this hollow feeling in my chest that would make me feel such deep sorrow."

"As for you, Nong Orm..." I stopped midway to kiss the top of her head while trying hard to compose myself so I would not cry. I needed to be strong for her, I did not want her to worry even more. "I've started to long for you even before I need to leave, darling. I..."

"Oh, P'Ling..." Orm noticed me crying silently when I could not continue as I found it really hard to talk with tears flowing down my face endlessly. Feeling her patting my back gently, I bit my lip as I stared back at her eyes that were mirroring my emotions. Found my strength to continue my words, I softly said, "Please don't ever belittle your emotions, Nong Orm. No matter how many days we're apart, if we long for each other this much, that's just how our love looks like. Deep and pure."

Kissing her forehead, I smiled when she whispered, "Beautiful and affectionate."

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"I miss you too, Nong. Two more days, baby, hang in there, alright?"