Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

29 - If She Walks Away, It'll Rain

I never expect this to happen.

How can I, when I can still remember her touch and the way she loves me like yesterday.

But right now, she is pulling her suitcase, walking further away from me.

"Nong Orm, no..."

I finally find the strength to chase her before she disappears. This definitely gives me a deja vu that I do not want to ever repeat in my life; our breakup scene in the series.

"Nong Orm, please..." I back hug her tightly as tears are already pouring down unapologetically. She is not moving and not turning around to look at me either. She just keeps mum and waits for me to stop crying.

But when Orm realizes I will not recover from my sobs anytime soon, she says these words with no trace of emotions. Just coldness.

"Let me go, P'Ling."

Biting my bottom lip hard so I can control my cries in order to say something, my words still come out so painfully empty. "I'm sorry, Nong. Please..."

"Why you're saying sorry when it's no one's fault here, P'Ling? Please, just release me. Set me free."

With shaking arms, I unwillingly remove them from her waist. Surprisingly, she still stands in front of me, not moving an inch. I know she is hiding her tears from me so I let her be. Anything that makes her feel better, I can do it for her. I would never leave her but if she chooses to walk away, I will still fight for her in the dark. I will always love her.

"Does being with me suffocate you, Nong? To the extent you need to set yourself free from me?"

I can see Orm's hand gripping the handle of her suitcase so damn hard that it starts to shake. She does not say anything but her silence means everything.

"You know, Orm, whenever I gazed at you for a long time, I always thought about what'd happen if I lost this beautiful woman. How can I live without her? How can I survive when she means the world to me?" I walk closer as my eyes are fixed on the back of her head. "The answer is I can't. It'll rain every day. If she walks away from me, it'll rain."

Gathering the courage to place my hand on top of hers, my sobbing seems to sound even louder as I do not have the energy left to cover it. "Don't say goodbye to me, Orm..."

"How can I say goodbye when you're the one that I love?"

That gives me a glimmer of hope but I do not want to expect more.

"But I have to go, Ling."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"I'm asking this for the last time, Orm. Are you sure you want me to let you go?"

"Yes, Ling."

Then slowly, she walks away from me, every stride feels like she is stepping her heels on my heart. She is not even vanishing from my sight yet but why the rain is already falling tremendously on me? Why is this getting so painful that I cannot even stand properly?

Why are you leaving me, Orm?

.

"P'Ling! Tee rak?"

Isn't that Nong Orm's voice?

"Baby Ling, you need to wake up before we miss the flight, hmph!!!"

I hug this woman in front of me ever so tightly to grasp her scent and fully feel her presence near me. Thankfully, it's just a dream.

"P'Ling...Why are you crying, Tee rak?"