Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

11 - She Fell First, Without Her Knowing

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Hi guys! I'm sad because today is the final episode of tsou :((  So here is a new chap to heal us all haha. Enjoy! Hope we can still get more Lingorm moments and series in the future tho 😔

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"What if I was also being captivated with you at the same time but, I didn't know myself well enough?"

"Tell me your point of view of us, P'Ling."

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Moving abroad to a country that was supposed to be my second home was so damn hard. On the other hand, I seemed to discover new parts of myself that I had never known about.

And when I met her, the confusion was even more apparent.

Her smile kept showing up in my mind and even my dreams. I was a really introverted shy person, and I was even more nervous than ever with her. That's why, I failed most of the time to interact with her.

'I wanted to become friends with her so badly, but she might even think I disliked her because of my cold behavior.'

"P'Ling, let's take photos together." She shouted from the middle of the room and waved her hand to call me.

Being a really slow person, I needed to digest first before I moved, so apparently Orm was even faster than me that she even came towards me to ask me softly, "Do you want to take photos together, P'Ling?"

Letting her take my arm, I joined her for the group photo. Once again, my eyes were discreetly distracted by her smile. And standing this close next to her, I felt my whole being seem even more alive with her positive vibe.

Living in Hong Kong for half of my life, I only knew about striving for the best. To work hard for the best score, to get to the top school, to have a stable career. But all of that crashed down when I suddenly needed to move to Thailand.

I needed to have a new plan, and this plan led me to pursue a not-that-stable career, as an actress.

For someone who desperately tried to find my safe zone, this career path made me feel so anxious. I did not like interacting with people and I took such importance of privacy so I actually did not want fame, but without fame, I would not earn enough money. So at that time, I did not feel my best at all, I was at my lowest.

But she appeared like daylight, with how easily she could turn my anxiety into joy, made me want to be her friend so badly.

"What are you doing, Ling?" I looked at my manager for a swift second before focusing back on my creation.

"I'm trying my best to make Thai omelette, P'Mam."

"You can cook?" P'Mam still pressing on, which made me sigh dejectedly. "Alright, I give up, help me, P'Mam."

She chuckled and taught me step by step patiently. "You're making a huge effort trying to befriend Orm, huh, Ling?"

I gasped in disbelief. "How do you know that?"

"I'm like your big sister here, of course, I can see how your eyes light up whenever you talk about Orm all the time."

Smiling slightly, I nodded my head and said, "She makes me happy, P'Mam."

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Growing up in a society that does not give recognition for a woman liking another woman, I never gave a second thought to my crushes on girls before. I just thought I admired them because they were pretty.