Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

33 - I'll Smile For You Instead

Do you know jealousy can ruin your mood in just a second?

Having an actress as my lover and being an actress myself, I totally understand professionalism in acting. So, whenever P'Ling has her romantic shooting sessions with other actors, I have no problem with that because I trust her. But now, this is a whole different story.

We will have a photoshoot with our beautiful fan in a few minutes and I have to see my girlfriend holding other girls close in front of my eyes. If I am not getting jealous, then I am the problem.

But being jealous at work and still needing to keep things professional is on another level. I do not understand how P'Ling can seem totally nonchalant right now. Isn't she supposed to be jealous, too? Our fan would also hold me for the photoshoot.

Sighing unconsciously, I make my way to the bathroom to calm myself down as I see our fan laughing at whatever my girlfriend is saying to her. With everything else going on in my life these days; the graduation coming up, long nights to prepare my presentation, packed schedules for work, and now even flying to Vietnam for projects, I really do not have the energy left to hide my mood swings.

Feeling the cold water on both hands, I look at my exhausted features as a smile feels like a grimace for me right now. Don't I look so freaking pathetic right now?

"You're the most beautiful to me, Nong Orm."

Lingling suddenly appears in the mirror as her serious eyes are locked against mine through the reflection. She does not hesitate to wrap her arms around my waist and gives me a soft kiss on my neck. "What happened, baby? Are you alright?"

I only nod my head as I gasp for a moment when her lips are brushing against my earlobe. "Don't keep it inside, Nong. Let me in, will you?"

Closing my eyes to hold the temptation of kissing her with no mercy, I am about to say something only to stop when we hear some footsteps coming. P'Ling immediately releases her hold on me, resulting in me feeling cold and empty inside.

"P'Ling, Nong Orm! Oh, there you guys are, the photoshoot is about to start!" The bright smile of our fan is so pretty and that instantly brings out the insecurity within me. What if P'Ling falls for that smile?

Lingling seems to sense my down-sliding mood as she keeps her eyes on me, never leaving me out of her sight. "Let's go, Nong Orm." Her hand finds mine and she intertwines our fingers together like a normal friend would not do.

Ever since that moment, P'Ling has made sure to never let go of my hand unless it is necessary. Even when we are touching up our makeup or getting our hair fixed, she still keeps my hand in hers while occasionally drawing circles with her thumb in a gentle way. And when we are holding our fan with one hand for the shoot, her hand still reaches out to hold my arm protectively. She is that sweet to me, I can feel I am melting by her actions.

"Baby, you're tired, right?" She whispers next to my head as I nod and pout at her.

Her eyes are filled with warmth and concern when she holds the water bottle for me to drink it. As I gaze back at her, her eye-smile automatically appears so softly for me, encouraging me to drink more. "Hold on for a moment, alright? I'll take you to eat after we're done. You can do it, Nong! And actually..."

I raise one of my eyebrows to let her know I am listening. She smiles gently and pats my head as her voice sounds so soothing to me. "If you feel it seems hard to smile, it's alright. I'll smile for you."

I feel my heart just stop beating.

"Nong Orm! Let's take a photo together, only the two of us!" I run towards her in no time as my body seems to move on its own to embrace her in an intimate way. She does the same, the way she pulls me close to her while pressing her cheek against mine is so girlfriend-like that makes me smile effortlessly.