My Dearest Enemy - GeminiFourth AU

51. She's mine?

★★★Gemini POV★★★

And then I woke up. I looked around myself and finally realized.

There was no Fourth.

There was no my own child.

And Dunk was sitting beside me on the wheelchair. He was holding my hand. We both were in our late 40…

“Gem?” He asked with a trembling voice. I looked at him with fear growing bigger and bigger inside me.

“I’m not a dad, am I?”

Silence. The worst sound you could ever hear. Yes, you can hear silence. It hit me hard. Made me feel like I was drowning, I tried to scream but I was sinking deeply. My lungs are full of water. My heart is aching as never before.

“Where’s Fourth? I need to find him! He will tell me where is our daughter.”

“You don’t remember, do you?”

“I don’t remember what exactly?!” I shouted at him. I got out of the bed and noticed I was wearing red Ferrari F1 team pijamas. My room was ugly and sad. Grey walls, black furniture, sadness soaked through everything around. How long have I been living like this? How long was I trapped inside the world of my own imagination? Was anything ever even real?

“Fourth died 20 years ago, Gem. We couldn't save him. You remember that, you must have remembered that, you were there when he was dying! You were there, Gem! You saw it, please, tell me, you remember anything!”

I heard the silent begging in the tone of his voice. I knew what he wanted me to say but I was sure that was not truth. Fourth was alive. I could feel him. Yes, I felt my Fourth inside my own soul.

“NO! You are LYING! I was with him last night! He just gave birth to our daughter! He is alive! Your obsession with death is scary, Dunk, you scare me”.

Dunk looked at me and I felt that I couldn't manage to stay calm. I couldn't stand the look in his terribly sad eyes. He was causing me pain that was hard to imagine. He was cutting my soul piece by piece, seeping the poison of a vile reality inside. I fell to my knees like a fallen angel. I realized that I had lost everything. My true home, my family and the person with whom I had tied all my plans, dreams and promises. Everything had been taken from me. And yet I was certain that that world, the world of magic, that it was the real world, was my only true home, my place on earth. I had to go back there, I had to find a way, maybe turn back time, not let anything take my Fourth away from me.

I noticed the pills on my nightstand. I walked over and grabbed it. I looked at it for longer time before it dawned on me. My way back is way through the death. If I overcome death, I'll become its master!

And suddenly I had a plan.

I think Dunk might have realized it a bit too late but he did try to stop me but I was faster and he was still in a wheelchair. He couldn't do much. I ran away to another room, I closed the door, turning the key. I was alone. I heard Dunk yelling my name.

“Shut the fuck up, Dunk! This is the only way! I promise I will bring Fourth back! I have to bring FotFot and our child back! And you can't stop me!” I yelled back. I think there isn’t pain bigger than the pain of a parent who realized that he lost not only his own beloved child but also his partner, the love of his life… There's no pain greater than that.

“GEM NO! DON’T DO IT! ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?! YOU'RE WASTING ALL THE EFFORTS, EVERYTHING WE ALL HAD DONE FOR YOU, WHY DO YOU WANT TO LOSE IT?! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US?!”