Dangerous Lines | Yuzuru Hanyu

28. Aftermath

Whether either of them wanted things to end the way they did was obviously completely irrelevant.

The truth was that Yaeko was more than aware that she wouldn't be the same woman after what had just happened.

Maybe it was a bit dramatic but the reality is that feeling so incredible wasn't something she took for granted, especially not with a man's eyes on her.

"Are you okay?" He asked after taking some time to clean himself and coming back to her thoughtful state.

Looking at his handsome face and seeing so much concern and love in his eyes made her feel like melting. This man was incredible and anyone lucky enough to ever have him would have won the jackpot.

"Yeah. I'm feeling great."

He did smile when she said that but the concern was still in his eyes.

"You're sure? You just look so thoughtful..."

"I was just thinking how lucky the woman you end up choosing will be..."

"I already chose my woman, Yae."

She needed to know he was joking. There was no way that he too, had hopelessly been thinking of them as a possibility. Not when her life was like it was.

"What are you talking about? You have someone I don't know about?"

It was a defence mechanism, just to make sure she wouldn't get embarrassed and heartbroken but the man in front of her eyes could read it way too easily.

"We both know who I mean. I could never find someone else after you."

"Yuzu..."

It was one thing that she was delusional, it was another to have him think that way too.
All of those hopes she found when coming back to Tokyo could come back in just a few seconds if he kept this conversation.

"I know... But what if... What if we find a way?"

He just confirmed what she was so afraid to hear.

"As much as I would love that, I don't want you to get hurt, Yuzu. You mean too much for me to just place you in harm's way by trying anything."

"One day at a time, alright? Just make sure you're safe as well."

Maybe it was delusional but she still believed him. They had exposed themselves to one another in the deepest of ways and fully entrusted their bodies to this, denying it would be pointless now.

"I will be... Will we... Can we do this again?"

The little smirk on his face showed her that same Yuzu that she had seen a few moments prior, the one that ordered her every movement and made her lose everything to pleasure. This was a side of him that she loved just as much as his loving and caring one.

"Kitten... You should know by now that all you need is to ask. I'm here for you, whatever it is."
Biting her lip, Yaeko allowed her body to fall on the bed into a lying position, just imagining what his touch would be like if they did this in person.
"You know that I can always tell when you're thinking of me, right?" He teased her.

"It's hard not to... You have no idea how good this was for me."

"I was right here when you came, beautiful"

Yae wasn't one to get easily flustered but Yuzu surely succeeded in making that happen, especially when he said things without an ounce of shame.

"I have no clue how you can so easily shift between a cutie and someone so sexy" she found herself saying, making the man smile wider.

"It's a matter of adapting to circumstances and you, my beautiful kitten, have this way of making me want to give you everything you deserve"

"You always know what to say and here I am, completely lost on what to answer you."

"I'll gladly just look at you"

"Hum..." Yaeko traced her fingers on her still naked body, the memories of what happened a few moments prior still in her head. "I did enjoy this a lot"

"You're a tease"

"Me? I'm an angel."

"Sure you are, especially when you're moaning my name."

He didn't seem to have a single bit of shame while he said those words, all the while she blushed furiously at the thought of the moments they exchanged. All of it had a long time coming but that didn't make it any less impactful.

"And I'm the one who loves to tease."

She felt at home while speaking to him, not only when they were bringing pleasure to one another but also like this, when everything was allowed and nothing was judged. Yuzuru changed a lot of how she viewed relationships and there was no doubt that he also showed her what being loved could feel like.

If only he could be on that bed, by her side, touching her as gently as she remembered him to be. For someone who has never been clingy, Yaeko was certainly craving to cuddle that man and she had no doubt it would be fantastic.

"What are you thinking about?"

Just as it was now usual, he always found a way to tell when she was overthinking anything.

"Just how much I wished you could be right here"

"One day, Yae. I promise you that"

She couldn't even begin to know how he was so confident but she had to believe. Yaeko wanted that reassurance that maybe they could have it, even if in a distant future.

It was a matter of fighting for this, hopefully without too many consequences.