He was her wonder and all she could ever ask for, but Cory didn't realize what was at stake in loving someone whose passion was beyond loving her.
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College students Cory Dimaranan and Derek Ignacio found love with each other and grew stronger ove...
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It's been a month since Derek left for his internship in London.
He pursued it and I supported him since it was his plan all along. Hindi ko siya pinigilanm para gawin 'yon. I didn't give him the option to do his internship locally instead I was the one who made him do it even though on the other hand, he wanted me to come with him. Hindi pa rin ako sumama kahit na inaalok ako ng parents niya ng sponsorship.
Our room was quieter since he left, well, hindi na naiba no'ng bigla siyang pumunta ng USA for two months for a vacation with his family. I was left alone. Umuuwi na lang din ako sa bahay ng magulang ko dahil ayoko namang maglugmok mag-isa at bakasyon naman kaya walang problema.
I was so sad nang hindi natuloy ang plano namin magpunta ng Palawan last summer. When the first time I heard him he would go to the US, hindi ako naniwala na tutuloy nga siya. I knew he wouldn't leave me alone and the fact that he would be gone for two months was insane. Hinayaan ko lang 'yon kasi alam kong hindi siya tutuloy kahit pilitin man ng magulang niya, but it all changed when he told me about it. Para bang naka-experience ako nang malalang heartbreak sa tanang buhay ko.
He felt so bad about it. Inakala kong babawiin niya rin agad, pero hindi. Inamin ko rin sa kanya na narinig ko na siya noon at hindi lang ako nagtanong sa kanya dahil may plano na kaming naka-set at kung ipo-postpone na naman namin 'yon, feeling ko wala na talagang pag-asang matuloy 'yon.
To make me feel better, he even suggested me to go with him and his family sa US. Doon na rin daw ako magbakasyon. Wala akong babayaran. His parents would take care of my visa and plane tickets. Wala raw problema 'yon sa kanila. I told him I would think about it, pero sa isip-isip ko ay may sagot na ako para sa kanya.
Hindi ko gustong pumunta ng US. Ang gusto ko ay pumunta ng Palawan.
When he gave me the time to think about it, marami na siyang plano na gagawin namin sa US kung matuloy man kaming dalawa. He was already thinking ahead of my decision. Hindi lang ako nagbibigay ng reaksyon sa kanya.
He already had these new plans for us, but the plan we used to have was already out of the scene and seemingly thrown out in the bin. I wouldn't say this out loud to him, pero na-bitter ako kaya nang binigyan ko na siya ng sagot kung sasama ba ako o hindi sa US, he got mad at me dahil hindi ako sasama.
He didn't talk to me for over a day dahil lang do'n. Hindi ko rin siya kinausap dahil wala naman akong ginawang masama. At the end of the day, siya ang sumuyo sa akin at hinalik-halikan ako sa leeg—which was my weakness.
"I get it now, babe. I'm sorry for the way I reacted, I should've been mature enough," he told me. "If this is how it's gonna be for two months, are you okay with that much distance between us?"
"Yes, I'm fine with it. Are you?"
"No. I'm not. I wanted you to be with me, but of course, I respect your decision. It would be hard for me, but I will always keep you in mind."
