"What? I haven't been hanging out with Lizzie a lot," I laughed awkwardly as I'm sitting in Hugh's car, in some random parking lot. "We're just friends."
I try not to sound panicky but it's really hard when my heart is beating out of my chest.
He's gonna find out.
Or maybe he already knows.
I mean, that's why he said he wanted to talk to me, isn't it?
He runs a hand through his messy blonde curls, blowing out a raspberry. "Yeah, yeah, maybe I'm just overthinking.." He says as he steals a chip from the bag I'm holding.
"Yeah.. what made you think that, anyway?" I need to shut up. It feels like I'm walking on a tight line right now. I pull my knees closer to my chest.
He chews on the chip while looking out the window, staring out into the night.
"Everytime you guys walk by eachother, your eyes lock. I don't see you in the sidelines during practice anymore. Neither do I see Lizzie. I asked Cap, Feely, Gibs, fuck, all the girls themselves, and they don't know what's going on with you guys." He turns his head to fiddle with his fingers down on his lap. "Shan got all anxious but that's about it."
It feels like I can't get enough air in my body. The feeling reminds me of when I would get in trouble with my parents and they'd confront me.
Despite how much of my heart belongs to Lizzie, it was once Hugh's. And he's still the most handsome man in the world - Atleast to me.
His athletic physique, his honey-colored curls that's so similar to his sisters, his kind heart and warm brown eyes.. he's always been the sweetest boy.
I love him.
But right now I love him so much I hate him.
I hate how he's concerned for me. I hate how he pays attention to the things I do. Why can't he just forget about me? That would make all of this much easier.
"And you haven't gone to my house as much lately," He teases but I know he's serious.
"Yeah, I've just been on my period, you know? I didn't wanna overwhelm you with my crampy self." I lie.
He hums and shrugs, leaning in and giving me a kiss on the head before taking another chip.
We sit in the parking lot, just talking.
But it doesn't feel like the talks I have with the girl who has stormy blue eyes.
And the whole time I'm thinking about her. Even when he kisses me, and we make out, and I tell him I'm too tired for sex today and that he should just take me home.
I think about her.
And I decide that what we're doing is too risky.
It needs to end.
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𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐘𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝟓 || 𝐁𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐓𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧
RomanceLizzie Young has been in love with Hugh Biggs, her (now ex) best friends' brother, since she laid eyes on him. The only thing that kept them away from eachother is Katie Wilmot - His girlfriend. She's the tiny little redhead under his arm. Lizzie's...
