𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐘𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝟓 || 𝐁𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐓𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧

CHAPTER 16: 𓆩♡𓆪

84 lbs.

I frown at the scale.

It's good but I need to be skinnier.

Prettier.

Tonight my mam had cooked dinner and I ate like a pig. I love it when she cooks because everything she makes always tastes so good. It's my weakness.

I'm scared that the food I ate tonight will be the weight I gain tomorrow.

I get off the scale and walk the short distance to my toilet, kneeling down infront of it.

I take a couple deep breaths before slowly sliding my fingers to the back of my throat and gagging.

And I do it over. And over. And over again.

I don't throw up because of Lizzie. I throw up because I cannot stand the sight of myself.

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I stand back up on wobbly knees after throwing up. I sniffle and flush the toilet before running the water for my shower.

I don't check my weight again.

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My hair is curly the next morning since I washed it when I showered.

I straighten my hair despite it being 5:30 AM and despite the way my body can barely stand.

Hugh texts me at 7:00.

Hughie <3: Good morning, baby. Hope you slept good. Felt like checking on you.

Hughie <3: Maybe we can go on a date after school.

I start to respond back to his message.

Me: Morning, my love. I'm grand. And a date would be nice. Where would we go?

Hughie <3: Figured we could watch a movie at mine. Claire is gonna be out with Gibsie, so it'll just be us. Was gonna buy popcorn and snacks for my girl.

I smile slightly, though my chest aches.

Me: Sounds perfect.