~Male crush x male reader~

Please... (angst + lemon)

Anonymous request

A/N 1: everything in the ✨fun time✨ part of the story is completely consensual. I know it's pretty rough, but it's consensual.

C/N POV:

I step out the front door of my house, taking a breath to somehow gain more energy before walking the few blocks it takes to get to my work building.

Jeez, what am I doing just standing here? I've barely gotten up to do anything except work for the past few weeks, so I should have plenty of energy to just get the paperwork and come back home.

After a bit longer of trying to convince my body to move forward, my body eventually complies, begrudgingly so. My steps are slow & heavy, mirroring the state of my emotions for the past two weeks. To try and distract myself from those feelings, I start glancing around at my surroundings, as if I don't already see them every day.

There's where Y/N and I first kissed.

I quickly shift my eyes to the other side of me, only to be met with another memory.

Y/N and I took a tray of sweet rolls to this neighbor one time a few months ago.

I blink a few times and look away from the house, shifting my focus away from it.

Maybe it's best if I just focus on walking.

I look at the sidewalk, watching my feet as I take each step.

Y/N and I used to walk here together, too, before we broke up...

I realize what I'm thinking and I groan to myself in frustration.

I might just have to find a different way to go to my work building. I can't keep feeling like this every time I do something.

I pull my earbuds out from my pocket and take them into my hands. I look down at them and sigh annoyedly to myself.

Great. They're tangled. Exactly what I needed today.

I start trying to untangle them, pushing my fingers through the gaps between the tangled wires and pulling them apart from each other.

"Oof–"

I drop my earbuds onto the ground and stumble a few steps forward with a gasp. I just barely manage to stop myself from falling face-first onto the ground with my hands, apologizing to whoever I just ran into in the midst of my distracted walking.

"Sorry about that. I guess I just wasn't paying attention."

"C/N...?"

I hear the familiar voice and I whip my head up, my eyes going wide.

Y/N...

I look at Y/N closely, touching his hand with my own out of instinct. I lean in closer to him, my face near his neck.

Fuck.

"Y/N, I..."

My voice trails off when I notice tears gathering in his eyes.

"Y/N?"

Y/N takes one look at me and starts outright crying, tears streaming down on his face. I immediately hug him & put my forehead against his, tears falling down my face as well as I let out heavy breaths.

I put my hand on the side of Y/N's face, wiping his tears away and putting my other hand on top of one of his. I intertwine our fingers together and put my forehead against his, looking deep into his eyes. He blabbers out soft 'I'm sorry's over & over between his quiet sobs, leaning into my gentle touch. I kiss his forehead and whisper to him.