But Beautiful

PART 47 (M)

"Can we talk a little bit about what we did earlier?" Taehyung asked Jungkook when he had woken up.

"Uh, yes, of course," he replied, a little groggy. When did I fall asleep? He wondered, blinking.

"You were really hot," Taehyung started, nosing along Jungkook's neck, "talking dirty, teasing me," he continued, "making me absolutely crazy." Jungkook's heart started pounding faster, fearing that he'd gone too far. He was about to ask if that was the case before Taehyung kissed his earlobe, speaking again. "I really liked it, it made me feel like I was sexy, wanted, like a regular person with regular feelings and regular needs and desires," he said, wrapping a leg around Jungkook's waist. "Not like I'm made of glass, or like I'm..." Taehyung trailed off for a moment, sighing, "like I'm a patient."

Jungkook turned to face him, hand wrapped under Taehyung's thigh as he looked into his eyes. "You are sexy, and so, so wanted. I want you. Before the first time we were together, I knew I wanted you. From then, my desire for you went wild. I want to make you feel good, turn you on, because you turn me on so much. You're gorgeous, head to toe, and when you're undressed and under me, I try hard to hold back. Because even if you're not made of glass, and you've got normal feelings and desires, I'm aware of your injuries. I'm not trying to treat you like less than my equal, Tae, I just want to make sure you're comfortable and that you're only feeling good."

"Do you think I won't tell you if something hurts, or is bothering me? I understand, Jungkookie, but I want to feel a little more involved, like I'm making the decisions with you. If you bend me in half and are being really rough - which sounds pretty good - and things start hurting, I would tell you. I know you would stop. You have my consent, all of it, all the time. If you didn't, I would tell you," he stressed.

Taking a deep breath while he let Taehyung's words settle in his mind, he slowly nodded. "You're right, I do worry too much. Even letting go earlier, talking a little dirtier, being a little bolder," he started, eyes fluttering shut as Taehyung started giving him small kisses on his neck, "I worried it was too much, that it would turn you off or make you feel like-"

"Jungkook, do you know what I'm feeling right now?" Taehyung interrupted, lips still hovering against his neck.

"No, I don't."

"Exactly," he sighed, pulling back to look Jungkook in the eyes. "So can you please trust me to know how I'm feeling and to tell you? The first time, when you had me keep talking to you, looking at you, having me say what I was feeling and thinking, I understand it. It was awkward but it was because we were doing things the first time, and I know you were cautious. And I was honest with you! I told you everything I was thinking and feeling, as much as I could," he said, adding, "because it was overwhelming and I was just overwhelmed with how good I was feeling. And you know, depending, if you did something similar now - having me look at you, tell you what I'm feeling - it could be really sexy, probably intense. But that's only if you stop holding back. I'm your partner, right? Please treat me like one."

It was quiet for a while, Jungkook considering everything Taehyung was saying. "I understand you," he started, "and you're absolutely right. I trust you to be honest with me, and I owe you the same in return. I'll try not to hold back too much, try not to be too scared of hurting you. Nobody has ever made me feel the way you do, I've never felt so good, never wanted someone so bad. I guess I don't want to ruin it, just like I don't want to ruin any aspect of our relationship. But, I will trust you, and trust myself with you, and won't hold back with how I'm feeling. Thank you, my love, for sharing your feelings with me."

Taehyung smiled at him, bright and warm as he leaned forward, kissing the tip of his nose. "You make it easy to talk, Jungkookie."

Closing his eyes to savor how far they'd come, Jungkook sighed happily. "I'm so glad to hear that."