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"bakugou," the words fall from my mouth as a barely audible whisper. we stare at each other through the darkness, both unmoving. moments feel like hours the longer we stand frozen in place. this is the first time i've seen him since the league. even after living under the same roof for nearly a week, it feels as if he's avoiding me for some reason.
his usual raging eyes are soft, but maybe it's just a trick of the shadows and the fact i'm a ways away from him. i'm not even sure he heard me call out his name.
those brilliant red eyes of his warm my heart, nearly my entire body the longer he stares at me. my palm lying on the cool wood of the banister grip harder around it as i feel my heart rate slowly pick up pace. there are so many things i want to say to him. i want to thank him for.
i take a couple of steps towards him, preparing the words i've been meaning to say to him ever since we fought the nomu. since he saved me from the league.
"i've been meaning to-"
"save it." he cuts me off before i can finish my thought, breaking eye contact as he turns to place the mug into the sink behind him. the blond stands in place as he hangs his head low and grips onto the edges of the sink. "don't come any closer."
i feel my chest ache at the words and grab onto the fabric at the cuffs of the hoodie harshly. but then confusion begins to set in.
i take a couple steps closer to his unmoving figure. "i promise i won't take up too much of your time, i just wanted to th-"
he slams his fist into the counter, the loud noise startling me backwards as my heart rate skyrockets as i'm suddenly sent back to that cell.
"stay the hell away. ya hear me," his words come out as a demand as he raises his voice. i'm frozen in place as he whips his head around to look at me. his eyes are filled with that fire and rage i'm used to seeing in them, directed for me this time.
i catch the muscles in his bicep slightly tense as he looks at me.
i see now.
my entire body slumps at the realization of his words.
he's finally seeing me for the monster he knows i am.
the monster i know i am deep inside.
"i see. i'm sorry bakugou," i look into his eyes one more time, giving him the biggest smile i can muster which just ends up being the slight upturn of the corner. something flashes behind his eyes before he turns away from me once again, feeling a chill rush down my spine.
"i just have one thing to say," the words are devoid of emotion, the only way i'm able to choke down the sob that threatens to rush up my throat. "you told me that you'd find me and you did. if it weren't for you i don't want to think what could have happened, thank you."
i turn away from the boy, coming to terms with the fact that he sees me for what i truly am. that he's finally come to terms with what i truly am.
my heart nearly shatters as i remember the moments of him holding me, the only person that can actually touch me without being harmed by my quirk.
heat rushes away from me like the tide receding back to the ocean.
i make my way back up to my room, knowing that tonight will be another sleepless night.
another night filled with the terrors that await me if i were to close my eyes for long enough. the touch of his blue flames burning away my skin along with my sense of self.
the memories will never fade unlike the scars left behind.
monster.
i deserved it.
my body slumps as i softly close the door behind me, sliding against it until i hit the cold floor. i bring my knees up to my chest as i stare into nothing until the entire rooms becomes a blur of dim yellow from the lamp on my desk.
a couple of soft knocks pull me from my trance as the room comes back to it's sharpened state, everything coming back into focus.
i don't know how long i've been sitting here but it's long enough that the soft blur of yellow coming from my desk lamp that once combined with the darkness outside, now rival as the bright sun outside dims the desk lamp.
"ko, are you awake yet?" eiji's soft voice is barely audible from behind the door, but it's recognizably his.
"i think you already know the answer to that," my voice slightly cracks towards the end of the words that fall from my dry lips. i begin to move away from the door as i slowly move to stand, every muscle in my body aching from sitting in the position against the door for who knows how long.
i grab onto the handle, twisting it, before swinging it open to find him standing there in an oversized t-shirt and dark sweatpants. his arms are hanging loosely at his sides as he stares down at me with a small smile on his lips before morphing into a frown as he looks at me longer.
his eyes morph with concern flowing through them as he grabs onto my shoulders tightly.
"what happened konomi, you look-"
"alive, alert, awake, enthusiastic?" the phrase drips with sarcasm as i let a small smile curl onto my lips. his grip tightens slightly as the concern overwhelms his entire face now. "i'm okay eiji, i promise."
i turn away from him, letting him follow behind me into my room. i make my way to the desk and flick off the light before i gather the homework i was working on hours ago into a neat stack to the side.
the soft closing of my door indicates to me he's finally walked into the room and his gaze burning into the side of my neck tells me he's standing next to me.
we both stand there in complete silence, letting the soft sound of birds chirping outside the window and conversations in the hallway wash over us.
i think back to last night, how cold he was towards me but how soft his touch was.
i feel like shattering into a million pieces, wishing that i could just disappear from the world.
if i wasn't here no one would get hurt from what i've caused.
all might wouldn't have lost his quirk.
mom and dad might still be alive if what the league showed me.
futoshi and junko would still have our parents by their side.
i lose all strength in my body as i begin to fall to the ground, only to be brought into eiji's strong arms placed softly on my back.
exhaustion begins to take over my body as tears fall from my dry eyes.
"i'm scared. i don't want to fall asleep," i breathe out, staring up into eiji's soft red eyes. a worried smile pulls at the corner of his lips as i feel my weight shift to be placed fully into his lap.
