My Safe Heaven

Chp 21

Ryan Leblanc
Standing next to the chair Nia sat in I held the ice pack in my hand over her bruised fist , rotating it every so often so the freezing sensation wouldn't feel like fire .. looking down at her I watched her daze out at nothing in particular , before a single tear shot down her face .. after choking him up and him escaping her grasp , she punched him clean in the eye followed by one to his lip .. mama was in the bathroom tending to the huge gash Chris has on his lip currently.

Pertaining to Nia's past I understood why she reacted the way she did .

Taking the ice pack from my hand she held it on her fist and threw her head back , letting a agonizing scream leave her mouth .. looking at Ace then back to her I bent down in front of her as she cried out in pain .

"My baby I feel me losing my baby." She said above a whisper

Looking at her in confusion i gathered myself not wanting to trigger anything , placing my hand on her thigh but quickly moving it as a warm liquid coated her leg , drawing my hand up to my eyes I looked over at Ace who looked just as surprised .

"Ima go get mama." He spoke running toward the bathroom

"Nia are you pregnant?" I asked standing to my feet

Nodding her head slowly she quickly dropped it and adjusted her focus to the floor beneath us .

"We gotta get her to a Hospital."

licking my lips I grabbed under her arm and hoisted her up , before sitting her back down due to the screams she belted upon standing to her feet .. looking over at August I watched him walk over to us , taking Nia into his arms bridal style he walked out the kitchen and to the door .. opening it for him he walked out and opted for his car laying her down in the backseat .

"What's going on?" Mama asked pulling her gloves off

"I think." Wiping my face I swallowed what seemed to be air and looked back up at my mama "She was pregnant or still is mama she's got some liquid beating down her legs , how didn't I notice?" I spoke as my voice cracked

Pulling me into a hug she told me to head that way and they would meet us , being time was limited for things in this nature .. so if we wanted to hear any bit of decent news we better be going now , especially with us just now finding this out .. we had no knowledge as to how far she could've been .. I felt shitty I didn't realize anything the involvement that I've had surrounded everything else , outside of our usual check ups within each other mentally .

This was something I should've noticed rather she was one day or two weeks pregnant , my mind been everywhere and that's not an excuse which is the hard truth of being a realist .. when I fucked up I called myself out on and it quickly , this right here topped the chart I knew if I felt like this Chris probably felt ten times worse .

Hearing her light whimpers and cries made me feel so useless , climbing over the arm rest I sat cooped up on the floor behind the passenger seat and held her upper half while her body silently shook ..

"My body is drained Ry , I feel so drained." She spoke slowly through tears "I'm scared."

"I wish I knew I been everywhere being attentive to everyone and didn't do my part as your sister ." I spoke holding her

"I tried keeping it at bay , I just want my baby to be okay .. but this sickle cell episode of mine might've just one again." She spoke softly

Nia found out she had sickle cell a year into her moving in with me and momma , she kept complaining about feeling unwell but the doctors kept telling her she was fine .. the test she would undergo always came back with flying stars .. until we had to rush her back to the hospital one night , we then found out she had miscarried due to sickle cell .. that's in initially why our mom choose the field she's in now.