My Safe Heaven

Chp 3

August Alsina
Standing against the cold pole I watched as the nurse guided my legs to step one in front of the other .. taking my time i repeated what she had did before groaning out in pain from the burning sensation that got sent through my legs , limping off toward my chair I sat in and and throw my head back .. I just finished physical therapy for today and was ready to head back toward my room .

"Good news." The perky nurse began talking to me "At the rate your going and progress your making you might be out of here before your two months , give or take a month." She smiled softly "Hey Ryan I'm all done with him."

Looking passed her to see who she was talking to I locked eyes with the other nurse that welcomed me here , pulling my head phones out and turning the volume up to full max I shifted in my seat before closing my eyes .. no offense to her she just talked a lot and I wasn't really with it , she had sympathetic eyes every time she seen me and ain't really need that , nine times out of ten if she knew why I was in this situation people wouldn't be as sympathetic .

Feeling her push at my chair I held my hand up and moved myself by pushing the wheels , after physical therapy I had mental therapy and low and behold she was the one i had to talk .. to but since I been here ain't really said much didn't feel the need she didn't know me and ain't know her .

Going pass me she opened my door before walking off and returning with her clipboard , shutting the door behind her she took a seat in the chair that sat off in the corner of the room .. clasping her hands she shot me a tight lip smile which made me snarl my nose up . quickly dropping it I paused the music and sat back in my chair .

"Okay August it's been two weeks and you have yet to give me anything ." She spoke leaning back as well "I'm not a therapist and I'm not trying to be I just have to inquire where you're at mentally."

"Yal sit in dis place thinkin' yal can relate to a nigga 'nd can't if I'm hurtin' or mentally off balanced from my fucked up lifestyle 'nd situations how can yal help a nigga yal walk in dis bitch wit yal nose tooted to da roof yal wouldn't know da half." I chuckled bitterly

Sitting in complete silence I watched her eyes go from being bigger than saucers back to the size of beads .. messing with the hem of her shirt she stayed puzzled for about five minutes before I heard a low chuckle escape her lips .

"At the age of three I was sexually assaulted I was abused up until my freshman year physically and mentally , I couldn't escape my abuser until my mother decided she was strong enough to do so .. I got picked on tremendously in school I have tried suicide multiple times I have self harmed a handful of times , I cry myself to sleep sometimes and I have vivid nightmares of my ex beating me and chaining me to our once shared bed .. up until I was saved that's only half of my fucked up life but it happened and I'm here , instead of going around thinking the world and the people in it owe you something try to be humane you aren't the only one going through shit"

Standing to her feet she slowly pushed the chair back into place and left out closing the door behind her .. staring at the blank wall I shook my head and let my thoughts run rapid , after hearing that from her I realized I did what a lot of people were doing now to me . I looked at her and seen what was on the outside rather what she had going on internally ..

Growing up it was only me and my mom I ain't really know my pops from a young age so as I got older him not being around was normal .. I got into selling which untimely landed me in this fuck ass situation but we needed the money , me being the man of the house I had to figure out a way to get quick money I made a name for myself after a year in the game .. I was doing this since I was sixteen being twenty three and that shit catching up to me changed me mentally and physically all in one day .