"yeah, it's really, really bad... he needs a lot of my attention. im sorry." i said to my teacher as he wrote me a notice, letting me know i only had two weeks off, and would be expected to do my work online. i lied to him, im not helping my sick grandpa, my grandpa already died and i love him. im going to mexico with bils. she told me she had a second off, and she wanted to spend it with me. of course i said yes.
me and her in a nice air bnb, all alone, and i can get a nice tan? im so for it. i walked around my bedroom, on the phone with my dad after class.
"sí papà, sto bene. puoi prendere la tua medicina?" i asked him if he'd take his medication. he's always forgetting because he works too much, then he gets depressed. "lo so, lo so. ho incontrato una donna—è la cosa più bella, figlia mia. he said he met a new woman, she's the best thing that's happen to him.
"but i still love you, " i smiled, "and i miss you. you'll come see me soon, wont you?"
"of course i will.. as soon as im back from my trip. i told you that you need to come see my apartment."
"i've never been on a plane. let alone a plane to new york."
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"i'll be safe." i told my mom as i packed my luggage. "this is the first time you've take a trip alone- let alone two trips! new york, then mexico? what for? is this really how you wanna spend your break?" i shrugged, "it's fine." i said, "she's using you."
"no she isn't."
"billie-"
"mom, you dont know anything about her."
"do you?!"
"yeah, i do! we're quite serious, so you've gotta deal with that." i left my house a little after, getting on my flight to new york. i was thinking about what my mom said, it cant be true. im doing all this? nessa seems like she's in it for the love, i hope she really is.
when i got to new york, i saw her sleeping in one of the chairs. i approached her, shaking her shoulder. shit. there are guys pulling their cameras out now.
i sat next to her, and gently shook her. when she opened her eyes, she grabbed my face and kissed me. they definetly got that picture. "ness-"
"what? your race is red."
"they just saw us."
she turned around and looked right at me, "it's fine, baby. it's fine." she whispered, looking at her phone, "it's 3. c'mon, let's go." she took my hand and we got in line at our gate. i missed her a lot, i couldn't forget that, "you smell so good." i whispered, "thank you. your hair is so cute."
"it's a bit darker."
"you're not gonna do green, yet?"
"not yet."
"i think you'd be super sexy." i chuckled, putting her bag away for her once we got on the plane. one the plane, she updated me on everything that's been happening. i was trying to ignore my phone, but once nessa fell asleep on my chest, i saw all the comments on my instagram, even though i hadn't posted anything, all of them telling me that she's eventually gonna hurt me.
they dont fucking know anything. when things are perfect with us, the world is crumbling down on us. hours, and hours later, we were showering in our airbnb. it's really nice, i rented it just for us. "what? what do you mean?" nessa asked after i had told her that people tell me things, "i mean that they always ask me if you're serious about me, if you're usin me.." she turned around, rinsing the shampoo out of her hair, "what do you say?"
nessa's pretty scary, but when you realize there's nothing to be scared of, you're fine.
"of course i tell them i dont believe them.. b-because i dont." she wrapped her arms around my neck, "are you asking me if you should believe them?" i nodded, "sure."
"you shouldn't. im not stupid," she kissed me, "and i can completely change the way you're thinking right now." she whispered against my lips, and well, i shouldn't repeat what happen, but it was pretty awesome.
