I GOT READY, ALREADY DRINKING before this party. its my mom's birthday, but ive been trying to ignore that... by drinking. bil's on her way, i cant wait to see her.
kasen: yea i went back to the gym today
kasen: shit was reminding me of you so i just left
kasen: this shit is hard man
kasen: leaving you wasn't easy
i wish he would stop texting, but sometimes i dont. it feels good to be validated, i guess. i put on my fur jacket and waited for billie outside. my father stepped outside behind me, "you look pretty. will you be home for dinner?" he asked, "i dont know.. dad, you should call katie, see if you could hang out with her for a while?" i asked, genuinely worried that he'd kill himself. "the game's on.. im happy."
he's happy.. for now.
"please, dad. please just go out, call kal or frank. i dont wanna leave you here alone." he didn't say anything, billie pulled up and i hugged him and kissed his cheek, "ciao." i got in the car and billie laughed, "what!" i exclaimed, "you look so good. damn. sorry! laughing was all i could do." i hugged her, "thank you, bil. you look so nice."
"thanks. let's go."
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BPOV
nessa's acting like my girlfriend and i like it. she's been drinking a lot- one of my friends even tried to get her to slow down but she doesn't want to. she sat on my lap, a cup of vodka in her hand as she wrapped her arm around her, laying her hand on my face.
"smile!"
i looked up at the camera, neither of us smiled but after he had shaken the polaroid to reveal the imagine, we both looked good. i starred into the camera, while she looked at me, her hand on my face, i was hers and she knew it.
he handed it to me and i put it in my wallet. why not. suddenly, a guy came up to her. she subtly moved my have from around her waist, and drew back her arm from around me. she gave him all her attention, while she was sitting on my lap.
she got up and left with him. i cant chase after her, she's not my girlfriend. i leaned back in my seat, and look bored the rest of the night. i took photos, but i visibly wasn't happy in them. i didn't wanna tell anyone why, it'd be pathetic. a stupid girl, really billie?
nessa came back downstairs with another cup in her hand, with herer eyes widened briefly, and she gave an awkward smile, eyebrows lifting in a sheepish 'oops' expression while pulling her dress down somemore, her fur coat was next to me, i had taken it off of her when we got here.
