THIS IS MY fifth show this week. im tired, i am so fucking tired that im falling asleep while im getting my hair done. this model shit isn't easy, im really just doing this because they pay me so much. bil's supposed to be here tonight, she told me we wouldn't be official, but we're definetly into eachother.
she said no posting on insta, no being seen with eachother so for the next week, i plan to be tucked away in my hotel with bil, because we cant really go out. eyes are on us, even i have a management team, who told me that it wasn't good to be seen out with billie if we're having issues. we're not having issues im just a teenage girl who's gay and struggling to love the person i love.
cant a girl ever just be a girl?
i did my show, billie in my head the entire time. in the car back to my hotel, i was texting bil.
billie i wanna see your show
nessa i have a burbary show soon. frankie made their fall line.
billie thats cute im happy for you baby
nessa hey im not ur gf remember?
billie you're kinda stuck w me. how are you gonna forget me?
billie tell me that?
i laughed, putting my phone down. since she's teasing, i'll leave her on read for a few minutes.
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B POV
i smacked my lips, looking at my phone. i hate when she leaves me on read mid convo. i got in bed, getting ready to get on a flight to new york in the morning. i caved. right after work, im heading to her hotel room, and spending the rest of my trip with her.
we're just friends with benefits right now, i just we did jump into a relationship too fast. only bed thing is that we have to be a secret now. i can't post her when i want to, which is fine. i just want her.
i was busy trying to sleep, when i got a text from her.
