unconditional love

Chapter 19- at the party

Kirstie P.O.V.

I'm still in shock. I'm a mess right now! Jeremy made me have all the feelings for him again. When I wasn't seeing him, it was easy, but now, when he said that stuff about loving me, and asking for forgiveness..I..I think that I didn't forget him completely..But I couldn't get back with him. He hurt me so much before. I was getting better, and I was happy again, and now? I feel like I have to start all the process again...

Avi was the one by my side all the time, and I think I hurt him. But, he didn't have to go in my rescue. I could take care of myself in front of Jeremy. It pissed me of! Mostly because he rejected me yesterday. Besides, I couldn't handle the two of them together. It's so confuse, cause the two of them don't really want me, but were treating me like if they wanted, well, in different perspectives..and I had to demonstrate that I didn't want neither of them..actually wanting them..at least a little bit..

Ugh!!! I'm so confused!!

Maybe this party will make me forget about this huge mess in my head. I need to have some distraction.

I see Avi sitting in the other side of the bus, looking outside, across the window. He even look at me. Or speak..

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We get to the party. I'm with Scott and Mitch, while Avi and Kevin get in a few minutes later. So we stay separated. Mitch sees a bunch of guys who he knows and walks to them, already in the mood, laughing and being sassy. Scott meets Alex but he don't let my side.

If I will stay with them, hugging and kissing and being a coulpe, I'll have to get drunk.

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I'm with a bottle of some drink in my hands, and I even know how I got it or what it is. In this point, I must be drunk, and I don't care.

I'm laughing too. I let Scott with Alex and go to the dance floor. There're some guys there. I want to dance with them, but I can't feel my feets. Am I dancing now? I actually don't know. But I'm having a good time, cause, whatever was bothering me before, I even remember.

I look around and I see Avi, He's staring at me. I have a feeling that I shouldn't go toward his direction, but, gosh, he's so attractive!

Avi P.O.V.

I'm pretending to have fun here, but honestly, I can't. I got some shots of vodka, but I don't like to be drunk, so I stopped with the drinks. I'm sat at the bar just looking around and of course, watching Kirstie. She is very drunk now, and she is dancing like a crazy person. Some guys are dancing with her so closily and I'm pretty sure they are taking some advantage of her drunkness. I have to control myself, cause I want to go there and separate them. But she would hate my interruption. Like before.. So I just observe.

In some point, her eyes find mine, and she comes to where I am, smirking. She suddenly reachs my neck and kisses me ardently. In the deep inside of me, I know she is drunk and I shouldn't kiss her back, but she is so turn on and provocative, so and can't resist to wrap my arms around her waist, going further with that kiss. Her mouth is warm, hungry and it's driving me crazy.

suddenly, a guy, from nowhere, maybe one of those who was dancing with her, pulls her for his arms, and it happended so fast that I couldn't do anything. He drag her to another direction and kisses her as well as I did in this moment. I can't breath, I can't move at all as I watch she returning his kiss, provocative like with me.

I'm done. I sit again, with my hands in my face, trying to push way these feelings. Whay can't I just be free of it? I can't count how many times I've been broken by her.

I can't resist and look at her again. I want to see if she is still with the same guy, or she is with another one. And the scene I'm looking now makes me stand up and go there as fast and angry as I can.