unconditional love

Chapter 24- different perspectives

Avi P.O.V.

I can't believe I'm finally in home. My parents almost died of happiness when I got here. Me too. I love them so much! My hole family is here for hollidays, so, I couldn't be more happy. 

I'm still reminding about that night, when I admited my feelings for Kirstie. It was bad. I want to know if she readed my letter, if she forgave me, if we're still friends. But I don't have the courage to make contact with her. Actually, it's better this way. If I talk to her, I'll not be able to be calm here. An I want to forget a little about her. She don't want me. And it's almost killing me.

I've been here for almost a week now. My parents realized that I'm not ok. My mom tried make me talk to her, but she would be so worried if she knew the reason. I can't do this to her.

I'm in my room, listening some musics, when Esther cames and sits by my side in the bed.

"Ok. What's going on?" I look at her. She is calm and serious.

"Why are you asking? I'm fine." Maybe it works.

"Really Avi? You think that I'm that supid? I know you, and I know when you're upset. You can't hide your emotions from me." There's no point in trying hide things from her.

"Ok. I've been having some...problems.." I'm thinking how I'll tell this to her. She will be shocked? Or angry with Kirstie? 

"Ok..what's happening?" 

"You must to know that I don't want to worry mom and dad ok? So, what I tell you here, you can't tell them! Do you understand?"

"Of course, Avi. If you want, I'll not tell them nothing.I'm your sister and I love you. I don't like to see you in this way." 

I choose carefuly the best way to tell her all the drama. And I speak about everything. All the feelings about Kirstie and what happened in the past few days. But now, I can be calm. It's a good start.

And when I finished the story, she was pretty shocked, like I thought.

"Oh my gosh Avi..why didn't you tell me?" she asks with concerned eyes.

"It would make things pretty awkward. You're always with the group. You could be angry with her, and I didn't want this." 

"I would be never be angry with her, or with you. I love her too.She is kind of my sister. But I don't like to know that you're suffering so much because of her. How can't she see the great guy you are? I mean, I'm sure that every girl in the planet would be very happy for be loved by you." Yeah, she is my older sister, so, she makes comments like that.

"It's not like that, Esther. And you know it. I love her, so much. But if she doesn't like me this way, or if she never will, I can't blame her. We can't choose with whom we'll fall in love. I'm happy that I fell in love with her, cause she is one of the most incredible person I've ever met." She can see that I'm serious.

"I'm so proud of you, Avi. You are so mature, and humble." She gives me a hug. "I still don't understand why she don't want to be with you.."

"Well, thanks for support. Now, you already know what's going on."

"Yeah. Thanks for telling me. But, you can't be hiden in your room forever. You should try to meet other girls. Maybe if you give yourself a chance, you could be happy with someone who wants you too." I'm almost convinced of that. I'm so tired to suffer. Kevin already gave me this advice. Maybe it's time to move on, well, at least to try it.

"I think you're right. I can't suffer like this anymore. It's not good for me, or for the band." Well, It's easier said than done..

"Great! Let's go to some nice place then!" She gets excited so I can't refuse.

"Ok. You won. Let me just take a shower and get ready." I can see her excitment and I can't avoid to smile.

What if I really can forget her?

Kirstie P.O.V.

"Honey, can you believe it's almost a week since you got here? I will miss you so much when you have to leave again!" My mom says while we're having dinner.

"Yes, it's true! How the time passes fast, right? But what do you have planned for us today?" I ask her.

We're having a great time together. She had already planned all my vacation in here, with many things to do. Things that mother and daughter use to do. She avoid to talk about my feelings, cause she knows that I'm having a bad time after I broke up with Jeremy. 

What she doesn't know is that who is making me think all the time about my feelings is not Jeremy. It's Avi. And the truth is: I can't stop to think about him. 

I don't know how it happened. I always thought that he is a great guy. That kind of man you can introduce to your parents and you can trust. But since  I got into his home when Jeremy and I broke up, I started to feel something different. I started to notice him more. 

I was flattered when I knew he loves me. And after that letter, whitch I already memorized cause I readed it a thousand times, I can't help myself but think how blessed I am for be loved by someone like him.

Actually, I miss him so much right now. I miss those days when he was close to me, helping me, making breakfast for me, staying in my room until I fall asleep..I miss his comfort and his soft hands gently stroking my hair. And I want to feel his lips on mine again. But now, I really want this. Not when I'm drunk,or confused. I really want to kiss him again.

I think I'm falling in love with him.

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It's too late for her? You have to read until the end! hahah =)

Almost done..almost done.