unconditional love

Chapter 21- reactions

"Kirstie 'P.O.V.

I sit on the sidewalk, and start to cry desperatly. What just happended?? I can't understand. I'm still trying to catch all the words that were said, but my brain is so exaust!

I'm crying alone, with my head on my knees, so I don't see when Kevin comes and sits beside me.

"Hey, don't cry, Kirstie." He hugs me by the side. "Avi called me, asking me for come here and take you to the hotel..What happened?" He is very concerned, and looking at him, I can imagine that he already knows a little bit of the hole thing.

"I don't want to talk about it now..I'm sorry" I say bethween sobbings. I don't know exactly what happened. It's to many informations for me right now.

"It's ok, Kirstie. You don't have to." 

I'm with my head down, staring the box in my hands. I still didn't open it. 

"What's that?" He points to the little black box.

"It's a gift, I guess..I didn't open it yet."

He is trying to read my mind. "It's from Avi, isn't it?"

"Yeah.." I'm shaking my hands.

"You should open it.."

I don't respond. I open it slowly.

And I take the necklace in my hands. It's a gold nacklace, with a diamont pendant, heart shaped. 

It's so beautiful and so delicate. I can't say anything and start to cry again. All the memories of Avi, taking care of me come back to me.  And all that time I probably was hurting him...Even so, he didn't let my side, not even for a second.

"Do you want to put it on?" Kevin asks and I didn't remember he is here.

I nodd.

He takes the nacklace from my hand and put it on my neck.

"Thank you." 

"Ok..let's get out of here. I'll just call the guys, so we can go to the hotel togheter."

Avi P.O.V.

Thank goodness, we've decided to sleep in a hotel instead of the bus. So I can be alone.

I close the door behind me and enter inside my room. I slowly slide on the wall until I get the floor. 

I put my head in my knees and start to cry. What have I done..

I ruined everything with a few words. I can't believe yet that I told her I love her. Yelling at her..oh my gosh. I'm so stupid! How I'm supposed to look at her after that? I'm not mad at her anymore. How could I? This is all my fault...

I need a time to think, more than anything. I need to be as far from her as I can. I can't look at her, and I can't deal with this.

I don't know for how long I've been crying when Kevin enters the room. He'll share this room with me.

He looks at me very concerned.

"Ok man, I don't know what just happened, but I should be worried. Kirstie was crying her eyes out and you too?" I don't respond.

"Ok. I'll take a shower. If you want to talk to me later, I'll be here. I'm your friend. Don't forget it."

After he get out of the bathroom, it's my turn to take a shower. I start to calm down, while the hot water hits my body. I should talk to him. I need talk to somebody.

So, when I feel ready, I sit on the bed and start to tell everything to him. He already knew about my feelings for her, but there were a bunch of details that he didn't know. So I tell about how I'm getting crazy, about how my feelings just doesn't go away, about that week with her in our place, and our kiss, and this night..everything. He only listen my  speach.

"I ruined everything, Kevin. I ruined our friendship. I pushed her and probably she is very upset and confused..she has all the right to be. I don't know what to do.." I take a deep breath. "if I only could back the time.."

"The only thing you can do now is go sleep. You must give her some time, and you should take this vacations like a opportunity to think and calm down. We're all getting our own way to our homes tomorrow so, it's almost done."

"Yeah, I'll do that. Thanks."

"Anytime, you're my bro." He hugs me.

But I want that she could forgive me. I'm feeling so bad for what I did to her..so, I have one last idea. It's a chance to let her know that I'm sorry for what I did.