unconditional love

chapter 2 - messed up

Avi P.O.V

Today is the day of shooting. I wake up at the right time and take a shower before that Kevin wake up. Our routine is always this: I wake up first and take shower because I spend more time to get reary. Then Kevin takes his. Besides, we usually headed out of the house together. We are roommate since our band was formed, and now he is probably my best friend. We do everything together, including the originals songs of our albuns.

When I leave the bathroom, Kevin is already at the door, waiting to get in.

"Good morning Avi". Kevin says with a sleepy voice.

"Good morning Kev." He smiles and enters in the bathroom. In the meantime, I go to my room, with a towel around my weist. I put a black skinny jeans, a red checkered shirt bottoned up to the neck, black shoes and a black beanie. Nothing too diferent. It's been a long time that I have made this style of clothing.

When I wake up, the only thing that is in my mind is Kirstie. I have gotten used to her face in my thoughts throughout the day, especially when I wake up and when I sleep. I think about what she is doing, if she is fine, and what she would be doing with Jeremy. This last thought always makes my chest hurt.

Kevin leaves the room, already ready and called me to go.

"Men, I'm so excited about the video today! I think it will be special! What do you think?" He says

"Oh, I think that is going to be very good. That idea of putting parts of home movies of our childhood was sensational!" I replied as I'd get the car key and accompanied him out of the house.

Kirstie P.O.V.

I go into the studio where we will record the video and all the guys are already there. I compliance with all quickly and caught Mitch's arm.

"Hey Mitch, can you help me with my clothes and my makeup? I'm a disaster today!" while I talk about this, I enter in the dressing room with him.

"Of course kirstie, but what happened with you? It seems that you never sleeps for days!" he look at me with concerned eyes. As soon as I sit in a chair, Scott enters. "Hey kirst! "What are you guys talking about? Why are you with this mood today? Did anything happen?"

I Did not want to talk about my problems with Jeremy now, because I would be upset and I would probably cry. Besides, I can't seem sad in the video. But they are my best friends, and they are so worry about me. So, I went off my chest. And Scott e Mitch takes a sit on the floor, next to me

" In fact guys, I'm going throught some problems with Jeremy. We 're fighting more than usual lately, and when we're at home, hardly we talk with each other. Sometimes, I want just talk about my day or about some news, but he don't pay attencion on it. He just ignores me! I don't know what to think! I don' t know what happened to him. Besides, I don't remember the last time he kissed me...Maybe, he don't love me anymore..."

When I said the last parte, my eyes filled whit tears. But I don't want to cry, not now. Today should be a happy day. Scott e Mitch quickly embraces me.

"Oh, sweetie, I hate to see you like this! Maybe it's just a phase, you know? You can talk to him and explain your feelings. He may not know you're feeling só unhappy." Scott says, while he caresses my hair.

"Scott has a point. You should try to talk to him. Let him know everything you're thinking . I'm sure you two will be fine! You love each other!" than, with a excited voice, Mitch says "Now, let's deal with your clothes and make-up!! I'll transform you into a angel! Oh dear, your hair is just a mess!" I grinned. "Hum...where's your bag?"

I point to the bag that have fallen to the ground. He takes the bag and takes a sit in a chair in front of me.

Scott, who could not help to much with this, asked if he could join Kevin and Avi.

"Sure! You can go now. You helped me a lot! Just don't talk about this with the guys, ok?" I say, with a smile in my face. I'm very lucky to have these two boys as my friends.

"Of course, hunny. Don't worry about it." he kissed my cheek e left.

Half-hour later, I was all dressed, wearing a black skirt and a black and white checkered shirt. Jeremy once told me that I look beautiful with this outfit. Then, I grabbed Mitch's arm and left the dressing room with ours arms enlaced.

When Kevin saw me, he gave me a side hug and said that I was very pretty. He is always sweet like this.

Then, Avi came to me an said, under his breath " You're very beautiful, Kirstie..really." And, before I'd ever thank him, he just turned its back and moved away.

I don't know why Avi don't have a girlfriend. He broke up with his last one a long time ago, and since then, I never see him with any girl, and never listen him to talk about it. It's odd, cause he's always surrounded by beautiful girls wanting him, but he was never interested in any of those. And all the fans loves him. He is, in fact, a lovely man. He is extremely calm and composed, good looking, he don't talk to much in interviews, but when he does, he has always something smart to say. Well, maybe, he has a secret girlfriend and don't want to expose her. It's understandable.

Avi P.O.V.

Wow! When kirstie left the dressing room with Mitch, I was short of breath. She was stunning! As always! How can she be so perfect?? It semms like she's becoming prettier day by day!

I didn' resist the urge to go where she is and, under my breath, I said she was really beautiful. Then, I just turned its back, so she couldn't see my embarrassment.

I see her almost every day, but since I started to feel something for her, I can't look at her without admiration. She is the most perfect girl that I have ever met and I definitly love ver! How long can I handle this?

How can I love someone who already belongs to someone else?

She brokes my heart every day..when she talks about Jeremy with so admiration, or when she talks to me and I know she see me just as a friend. I wanted so badly the lucky to call her my girlfriend and have her love! I would be the happiest man in the entire world!