unconditional love

chapter 3- confession

Avi P.O.V.

After all work is done, I call kevin, cause it's time to go.

"Hey kev, are you ready to go?"

"Sure! let's go!"

So, me and Kevin said goodbye to the others and left the studio.

Before I could start the car, Kevin says:

"Hey man, can I ask you something?" He is looking into my eyes now.

"Sure. What's wrong?" And I look at him too.

"It's nothing too much, I just want to know if you're ok, cause, recently, I've observed that you has been rather absent-minded, and a little sad too. Besides, you've been uncomfortable with all the group. There's something going on?"

Oh, I wish I could tell him about my feelings, but nobody knows yet! It has ruined me little by little. Maybe it's time to tell him. He's my bestfriend, after all.

"Yes, there's something going on, and I want to tell it to someone, but I can't tell you now. When we come at home I promise I'll tell you everything, ok?"

He nodds and lookd at me with curiosity, and I start the car.

Not long after that, we arrived at home.

I take off my overcoat, Kevin does the same, and seat on the couch.

"Now, sit here and talk to me. What's going on? I've never seen you like this!"

Kevin is one of the best person that I've ever met. He is very understanding and reliable. So, I felt I could tell him my secrets.

"Man, I don't know where to start.."

"Don't worry, take your time.."

"This is something that I never told to anyone. The truth is..a bit over a year ago I felt in love with a girl, and little by little, this passion turned into love. I love her so much!" My eyes are filled with tears at this point. I could do anything for her, you know?" Then, I started to weep. That weeping that I held for a long time.

"Wow man, I had no ideia you were in love with someone for so long...you really knows hide your fellings, huh?" He thought for a moment, then he asked: "So, what's the problem? Why you're not with her?"

"Well, a little while I confessed my feelings to myself, she began to date other man, with whom she is until now. And she seems to love him."

Kevin clapped me in my shoulder, trying to comfort me, I guess. After a few seconds in silence, he asks the question I'me afraid the most.

"who is this girl, Avi, that did this to you?"

Now there's no coming back...

"Kirstie..." I say, with my head down. I have no corage to look him in the eyes.

I feel his hand off my shoulder. Maybe he'll not understand. But who will? I love the only girl of our band, and it could hinder everything.

We didn't spoke at all, until a few minutes later. Then he brakes the silence and says with concerned eyes: "I can hardly imagine what you're going through, having to see her almost everyday, talking about Jeremy and all these things. You must be suffering, man..."

"Yes, I'm suffering pretty much." And I give him a little smile.

'Why don't you try to overcome this? You could go out with some girls. Distract yourself, you know?"

"I already did that, but didn't work. I couldn't get interested in any of the girls with whom I went out. I mean, nobody is like her."

"Dud, I don't know what to say. I hope you find your way to overcome this. Cause, I'll be honest with you. I don't think she will brake up with Jeremy one day...and I just don't want to see you suffering like this with no hope at all."

"I know, and I appreciate that. But for now, the only thing I can do is accept the fact that she is with someone else and I'll never have her heart. But, honestly, I don't think I can forget her. She captured my heart and it has no coming back..." I took a deep breath and with a little smile, I say "hey, let's not talk about it anymore, ok? Forget about it and, please, don't tell this to the guys! Don't worry, I would never do something that could prejudice the band, or Kirstie. Now, issue closed!" And I laugh, he does the same. We stand up and hugged each other.

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