unconditional love

Chapter 23 - revelations

Guys, you'll never believe in this. I accidentaly deleted this chapter!  So I had to write all over again! So stupid. I know. But I think it is almost equal. At least, it wasn't a long chapter! =)

Kirtsie P.O.V.

I'm frozen. I stare at the letter in my hand trying to understand my feelings.

"He loves me, doesn't he?" I ask Kevin, without taking away my eyes of the paper.

"Yes, he does. Very much.."

I just nodd.

 We stay in silence for a few seconds, but there's a subjective I need to know more. So, I turn to him.

"Listen Kevin, do you remember the car accident I was involved?"

"Hum..yeah..why?" He asks totally confused.

"Avi keeps some secrets about that day?" 

"Why are you asking it now?" 

"No..you tell me first what you know. I don't want to look stupid telling you why." What if it's just a coincidence?? What if he just have the same golden chain that Jeremy's and that's all? Nothing more? What if it's just my imagination telling me things just to mess with me even more?

He takes a deep breath, thoughtful.

"Ok. Avi was the one who rescued you, and took you off of your car, and got to the hospital with you. not Jeremy." He looks at me, trying to read me expression. I'm probably pale now.

"Oh.." I can't find more words to say.

"Now, I'll explain what happened. Avi left the studio just after you, so he was behind you, in his car when everything happened. He said that when he grabbed your body in his arms, you called Jeremy's name. You thought that was him, and Avi didn't want to disappoint you. So, he called the ambulance, got into the hospital with you, and waited until he had sure you was ok. But Jeremy came too, and he thought it would be better if he kept distance from you for the rest of the day. And that's why he didn't show up with us." He smiles a little at me. "You, lady, made him very desperate in that day!"

I'm totally astonished.

"Oh my gosh Kevin! How can I be so stupid? Avi saved my life..and not only that day..He saved me too when I was broken. He was the one by my side, taking care of me. And what I did? I hurt him! Over and over again!" How could he handle this?" I ask a bit frustated.

"There's only one reason for that. He loves you. That's it. You see, he even think he has a chance with you, Kirtie. He only wants to see you happy."

I feel something strange in my stomach when he says it. Something alive inside of me. But I'n not sure what it is.

"I..I even know what I feel about it Kevin! I'm such a mess! Until yesterday, I wanted to beat the girl who was hurting him. And now, I find out that I AM that girl. It's just..ugh! I guess aI have many things to think about in my vacations..."

Kevin puts his hand in my shoulder. "Don't feel pressed ok? I'm absolutly sure that whatever is your decision, he will completely understand." He smiles at me simpathericly. But it doesn't bring any comfort.

"I know he will. Besides, he even asked me to pick a side. He only asked for my forgiveness.."

"Well, he is a gentleman, doesn't he?" 

"He is.." 

"But, how did you find that was something more about this fact?" 

"Well, because, yesterday, after all the fight, I saw a golden chain in his neck. And it was the same that I saw in the neck of who took me off the car. Jeremy has the same chain, so in that day I thought it was him. I was a little inconcious so the only thing I saw was a golden chain swinging in front of me..."

"That,s explains a lot!" He laughs

I'm get a bit thoughtful, and he asks what's wrong.

"I don't deserve his love Kevin. Look how much he has done for me?"

"Hey, don't say something like that! You deserve the love of someone good like him, ok?" 

I smile and he smiles back.

"Thanks Kevin, for telling me the truth." I give him a big hug.

"That's ok. You should know the truth anyway...Ok! Enough! I want some brakefast. I'm starving, don't you?" I'm not. Actually I'm not in the mood to eat anything, but I guess this conversation is over, so, I take his arms and we get out the room.

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So, hey guys, again! When I wrote the chapter about the car accident, I already had this revelation in my mid. Like a surprise. It was a surprise for you? I want to know! Thanks for the reading!