unconditional love

Chapter 18- guess who?

Hey everyone! This story is almost done! And I think this chapter is very bad..rsrs. 

Kirstie P.O.V

"Hey Scott, what's up?" I answer the phone, not a little focused. He is talking about something that happened to him today and I can't hear a single word. Because now my brain is still trying to get what just happened to me.
I kissed Avi.
I'm still feeling the warmth of his lips. I should't have done that! And definitely, I shouldn't have liked so much.
But he rejected me. Of course. He loves another girl, and when he only tries to be friendly with me, I run to him and kiss him. I'm so patheric..
"Kirstie? Are you listening what I'm saying?" I totally forgot That Scott is in the line.
"I'm so sorry! I'm distracted about something. Can we talk tomorrow?"
"Sure..but, I should be worried about you?"
"No, no..it's nothing important..."
"Well, ok. See you tomorrow. Love u"
"Love u too"
Am I falling in love with Avi?
No, I can't. What I need to do is just forget about what happened and move on. He is my friend, that's all.

Avi P.O.V.

I wake up trying to push way my thoughts about last night. She kissed me and I was dumb enogh to stop. I know that was the right thing to do. She is vulnerable now and confused. if I got further in that kiss, I problably wouldn't be able to stop. I just don't want kiss her like this, when she probably would regret. But I crave having her lips on mine again! I want get back in that living room and kiss her one more time..
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Kevin and I got into our bus, waitig for the others to come. I stay sitted in the couch, nervously, preparing myself for when she comes in. I didn't get over our kiss and I know I should. Kevin asked what's wrong with me, but I didn't want to tell him the truth, so, he gave up trying to understand.

A couple minutes later, I'm getting distracted by something in my phone, when Scott enters, with Mitch, and Kirstie right behind them. I keep my eyes in my phone, not wanting find her look.

Mitch and Scott go to the other side of the bus, where Kevin is, and I hear Kirstie says that she will get them later.

"Hey Avi, can I sit here?" She asks shyly.

"Of course! Sorry, take a sit."

"Hum..Avi, about last night, I'm sorry. I shoudn't have kissed you..It was a big mistake. I just don't want that  ruinning our friendship..." It hurts me. I knew that she would regret that kiss, but hearing now from her..it's more than I can handle. But it's not her fault. nothing of this is her fault. It's only mine.

I take her hand in mine. "Don't worry, Kirstie. I know you were just vulnerable. I would never think about this in another way, ok? Let's just forget about it" I smile at her, kissing softly her hand that I was holding.

"You are such a great person Avi. Any woman would be blessed just for be your choice." 

She only don't know that SHE is my choice...

"I don't know if it's true but thank you anyway." I laugh a little and she stands up.

"we're good, then?"

"We're always good." 

The rest of the trip is going slowly. I can't handle this anymore. I want her so badly, and it will never happen..I feel a tear running by my face.

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After our performance, we're at backstage, talking, sorrounded by many peaple, including fans, staff, press..etc. Were're taking pictures together when I look at Kirstie, she is palid, and she stop moving. When I follow her gaze, I know exactly what's going on.

It's Jeremy. He walks in her direction, all smiles. She is very tense and her hand presses my hand too hard. I keep my eyes on him, while I stand by her side. 

"Hey babe. He pulls her in a hug and start a discurse about how he have been missed her, and how he is hurt, and regretful. She only stares at him, not speeking a word. Her eyes are full of tears, and he take her silance as a opportunity to insist in his crap talk.

"Can you forgive babe? Please? I came to NY only to see you again..."

She finally say something. "I can't do that.."

"What? why not? I won't leave you until you say yes ok? I love you." He grabs her arm.

She is with doubt. I know she is. 

I'm close to her,so, instinctively, I draw her closer to me, with my hand in her waist. "How could she forgive you, after what you did to her?" I don't know why I did that. She is not mine. I should'n t get in the way but I just don't want to see her broken again. And looking at him, I only remember of she crying for him.

"Wait a second! Are you..and him..?"

"No, of course I'm not with him, Jeremy!" She answer so quickly even looking at me. It hits me hard. I let go of her waist and he smiles with this sentence.

"Sorry for interrupt. I'm going now."

I walk toward our bus, quickly, not wanting talk to nobody. will she get back with him?? after what he did?

I wanted so much to be alone right now, so I could cry...but I hold my tears back. And I'm sitting in a chair, looking for the window, when the others come in. 

Kirstie is very upset, crying in Mitch's shoulder, and when Scott passes for me, he whispers in my ear. "She didn't get back with him. I don't know what happened, but she thinks she hurt you. We talk later."

Yes, she hurt me.

Kevin sits next to me and I keep my eyes in another direction. I think I'm getting crazy.

"You know what?? Let's go to dance and enjoy the night! You can't be crying for him anymore! He doesn't deserve your tears ok?" Mitch says. 

"Mitch, I don't know if it's a good idea. Look to how upset she is.." Scott tries to argue with them.

"No, I mean, Mitch's right. Let's go to a party. I don't need to cry for him!"

"Yeah girl! Let's do this!" Mitch is so sassy as always.

"Are you sure?" Scott asks.

"Yeah, I'm sure."

"Ok, I'm going to tell to Avi and Kevin."

 And he comes to us. Kevin looks at me. He knows that I'm not in the mood. "Are you going too, Avi?" He asks, worried. "Sure, why not?" I'm not sure at all. 

But this is a bad idea...