unconditional love

chapter 4- confused

Kirstie P.O.V

After finishing the shooting, I was so tired! So, I changed my clothes for a more comfortable one and went home with the intention of talking with Jeremy about our relationship.

On the way home, I started getting worried and extremely nervous too. My heart started beating fast! Why I was like that? 'It's just a conversation. It's not a big deal!' I try to convince myself while I drive to home.

But the truth is, I'm scared for what he can say to me. What if he says that he doesn't love me anymore? What if he get angry?? Omg...

When I get home, he's not there...this is weird. Today is his 'day-off' and he had told me he wouldn't leave the house.

I put my bag on my bad and move toward the kitchen. When I get there, I think I could do a romantic dinner for Jeremy. So, I start to make it.

It's only 6:00pm, so I have time enough to make a good meal, take a shower and be more, well, presentable to receive him.

One hour later, the dinner is ready, and I am all dressed. Even my mood got better, cause the meal smells very good!

But Jeremy didn't come back yet.

After more 20 minutes of waiting, I call him, but he doesn't answer it. More 20 minutes. I call him again and nothing.

Now, I start getting nervous. What if something happened to him?

I lay in the couch and turn on the TV, but slowly, I feel sleepy...

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I wake up with the noise of something falling on the floor. When I open my eyes, I see Jeremy nexto me, more drunk than ever! He had just broke down the plates of the table.

I even know what to do with him! I never saw him like this, so drunk!

I got angried.

"Jeremy! Where were you?? I was so worry! And I waited for you for so long! You even answered my fone calls!" I get close to him and...he smells like alcohol and swet..ugh!

He just giggles, and I realize that he can't understand what I'm saying. I hate him right now...but I have to do something about it, so, I take him by the arms and lay him in the bed.

I go toward the living room again and sit on the floor. I wrapp my arms around my knees, get my head down, and start to cry, and cry, and cry...I'm feeling so alone and confused!

I don't know how long I stood in this position. But now, I'm very hungry, so, I get my way to the kitchen and take a little bit of the food that I prepared. I sit down at the table, and start to eat while I reflect about the events of the last few days.

What happened to us?? This is not the life that I wanted! Not at all. Why Jeremy is acting like a complete crazy jerk with me? He used to be a good boyfriend in the beginning of our dating, but now, everything is changed.

I love him. I really do! But is so hard being in a relationship when I don't know if he feels the same about me.

Maybe...this is the problem.

Maybe...he doesn't love me anymore...

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Happy new year everyone!!!