Admiring From Afar (BkDk)

16 - 'John Hughes Movie'

"Cause if you don't want me
Then you're not the one"

Bakugou POV
"This wasn't how it's supposed to go
I should be the he's with." I confess to my friends. Alien pats me on the shoulder as headphones pours me a vodka coke. I feel like crying to be honest.

"How could he date her?" I whisper more to myself but I know they heard me.

"Oh sweetie." Pinkie says as she shoulder hugs me. I don't even recognize myself when I hug her back.

"I was supposed to leave with him. He was meant to follow me around like he always does." I say through a sigh. "And I was gonna pretend not to notice even though I'd know he liked me." That's when the tears started.

"Bakubro, are you crying?" I hear shitty hair ask as I hide my face in my hands

"There's just smoke in my eyes." I say as I scoff at them.

"Maybe they won't work out. Not every couple is like the movies." Pinkie tries to cheer my up. Even though her hopes of Deku giving up on liking my sister are pointless. She'd date him just to spite me, I just know it.

"He practically looks right through me every fucking time he walks near me." I say quietly as an another tear rolls down my face.

"Here we go again. He's not ignoring you." Pinkie jokes says as I roll my eyes. "Plus, have you seen them together, may as well play the breakup song now." She jokes.

"But if he doesn't want you, then he's not the one." Shitty hair chimes in.

"Sorry to make this all about me, we're supposed to be cheering you up about your breakup." I say through a small laugh as I wipe my tears away. Pikachu shrugs as I drink the vodka and coke in front of me. 

"That happened forever ago bro. I'm so over her. Plus, I'm dating Hitoshi now, remember." He clarifies as I nod.

"I'm gonna go, I need to be alone." I mutter under my breath as I walk out and slam the door. I let out a sigh as I make it back to my own dorm. I head to the bathroom just to see the tears on my face. I wipe them away but they seem to just keep coming. I don't know how much more of this I can handle.

It's my own fault for pushing him away.

I lean against the wall as I try to regain my composure. But I'm still slowly breaking down. Maybe if I never bullied him and pushed him away, he'd still want me. I might be the one he's kissing if I never gave up on him.

I then hear a knock on my door. I let out a sigh as I open it swiftly. I stare with wide eyes at the nerd standing in my doorway. I take a deep breath as he begins to speak.

"Hey Kacchan." He mumbles. He seems very tired and out of it.

"What's up?" I ask him as he seems to struggle to stay awake.

"Dunno." He mutters as he crosses his arms.

"You want attention or something?" I ask him with an eye roll as he scoffs at me.

"Why are you acting like this?" He says as he raises his voice slightly.

"Why are you?" I yell right back.

"I stuck by you for this long and you still can't get over your ego. I promised I-"

"You don't owe me anything!" I shout at him. He seems surprised by my outburst and simply takes a deep breath before walking back to his dorm.

Shit.

I run out of my room after him. I grab his wrist and pull him toward me into a hug. He is shocked by my embrace. He pushes me off of him and I follow him into his dorm room. What am I gonna say? What am I gonna do?

"Are you acting this way because of my feelings toward your sister?" He asks in a sort of accusing tone. I roll my eyes and do not give a response.

"Or are you just jealous?" He says with a smirk and I clench my teeth in annoyance. "What is it that you see?"

"All of our stupid fucking friends know that I'm here for you, so why don't you!" I scream at him as he sighs.

"Fuck off, you never cared." He says with angry laced in his voice.

"Guess I misunderstood you again." I mock him as he rolls his eyes.

"Don't mock my feelings you prick." He yells as I scoff.

"Or what? Gonna go cry to my sister, like she'd ever care about you." I say with a laugh as he looks miserable.

"What is making you so angry?" He says in serious tone as I roll my eyes.

"Maybe I'm mad you chose my sister over me idiot." I say with a glare as his eyes widen.

"So what if I'm closer friends with her than you. That's your fault." He says while returning my glare. He misunderstood what I said, of course.

"This argument is pointless. You don't even understand what I'm saying. Hell, I don't think you even know what you're saying right now." I say as I become more and more fed up with this situation.

"Why is it that you care so much about what I think of you? I don't mean anything to you, I never have." The nerd says as a single tear falls down from his eye.

"That's bullshit! I've always fucking cared about you." And then the floodgates open and he becomes a sobbing mess. I take a deep breath as I watch him slightly begin to break down.

"Just leave." He mumbles.

"Deku wait...I need to tell you something." I plead to him but it falls upon deaf ears.

"What you say won't change how I feel about your sister. I like her! Learn to understand or learn to live without me." He says before slamming the door in my face.

I guess I just thought he liked me too. But everyone told me so to not wait around for him.

Because if he doesn't want me, then he's not the one.