Kill My Mind || DOLLHOUSE Spin-off

50. Grayson

I had taken Ale to the doctors immediately. We got lucky by the time we got there the doctor told us an hour or two more and he would't have had a chance of making it. They brought him in for surgery immediately. 

That was three days ago...he was still asleep. We didn't know how long he'd sleep for but Bella, Enzo, Matteo, and I were all still at the hospital. 

They told us when he wakes up, if he even does it would be several months to a year of recovery. I had tuned the doctor out after that. I wasn't family so I let the DeLucas handle it while I sat in a chair wide eyed unable to think straight. 

I had my men take both Nick and Marcello to one of my buildings. I knew they were dead but I needed to bury them myself to be sure. 

While Bella tried to rest on Enzos shoulder and Matteo attempted to do homework I thought. My legs and hands  shook as I thought about what he said to me before he passed out. 

He was going to let Nick kill him. I saw it in his eyes he was ready to die. He stopped fighting until I showed up...and he almost got what he wanted. I couldn't tell his siblings. It would crush them thinking their brother had given up on them but I knew that wasn't the case. He'd kill and die for his siblings no matter what. He wanted to die because he didn't think he deserved to live.

Nick made him thinking his life was worth nothing. My blood boiled. I started thinking about a world where I hadn't shown up on time. A world where Ale let Nick kill him. I had to stand up and leave. 

I quickly walked towards the bathroom without saying anything. He could have died...he wanted to die...he only left that chair to save me. He could have spent his last minutes saving me from the man he would have died for. He killed the man he loved to save me. 

I bent over the sink and threw up. 

I didn't know if I was upset or angry but I was in shock. I was so mad at Ale for giving up and I was so upset he wasted his last bit of energy to save me. I was heartbroken even more that after all this he and I were still over. 

That was how it had to be. I knew in my heart we'd never be able to look at each other again. Love or not we hurt each other...we hurt for each other. It wasn't the same anymore. 

"Gray?" I looked up to see Enzo by the bathroom door "You okay?"

"Fine."

"The throw up says other wise"

"I said I was fucking fine." I yelled at him. He closed the bathroom door and walked closer to me "I'm sorry." I said softly. 

He pulled me into a hug. He rubbed my back as a tear escaped me. "H-he's up." Enzo said softly. I froze. "Do you want to see him?"

I pulled away. "I-. I don't know. Does he want to see me?"

"I didn't speak to him yet I came to get you." I rushed past Enzo towards Ale's room. 

I stopped when I saw through the door. Bella on one side of the bed with him, Matteo on a chair on the other side of the bed. I hadn't really taken a good look at him since the surgery. 

He looked...broken. Beyond the physical scares. I could see it in his eyes. Maybe he's siblings couldn't tell. I knew he would try and hide it but mentally...this broke him. 

I watched as Enzo made his way back towards me. I shook my head and left the hospital without saying anything.