Kill My Mind || DOLLHOUSE Spin-off

51.Alejandro

I had to stay in the hospital for two weeks so they could monitor my vitals. They finally let me go about a month and a half ago but I was still severely injured. Bella moved back for the next few months to help take care of the business and although she pretends to let me take care of myself I notice when she does chores I was supposed to do so I don't strain myself.

No one had heard from Gray since I woke up. We only knew he was alive because he was running his business from wherever he was. I had a feeling it was Japan but I never said anything to anyone. If he wanted us to speak to him he'd let us know. 

When I finally came to terms with the fact that I was somehow alive the first person I asked for was Gray. They told me he dropped me off that the hospital and left immediately. I felt like everyone was just lying to me so I wouldn't question more of where he was. In my heart I didn't think he would just leave. 

I had sent him several texts asking to see him but he replied to none. He replied to no one. He was gone to god knows where...until Matteo told me he was back in town on business this morning. 

My heart skipped a beat when I heard. I wanted to see him. I wanted to thank him for saving me, I wanted to punch him for leaving me, I wanted to say I was sorry for leaving him, and I wanted to kiss him and beg for forgiveness. 

I stopped speaking about him after I left the hospital. No one was giving me straight answers about what happened and speaking about him only broke my heart more. 

After I got out of the shower and put on some nicer clothes I walked out of my room determined to say and do everything I wanted to with Gray...except maybe punch him. 

As soon as I left my room I was greeted by Bella "Where are you going?" she said with a smile. I knew that smile. What she really meant to say was 'you're not going anywhere without my permission. You can get hurt'

"The office" I replied with a lopsided smile 

"mhm" she said slowly; obviously not buying that "What every you need to grab I can grab for you."

"Bella-"

"There's no need to over work yourself" I grabbed her shoulders and moved her out of my way softly 

"Bella I have loved having you back but please...go home. Enzo misses you a-and I don't need you here." I smiled at her and started walking away 

"But you're still limping." I tired my best to fix my walk but I couldn't do much "You know you should be using the cane the doctor gave you!" I rolled my eyes "Ale!"

"Bye Bella love you!" I said as I continued my walk out of the house. As I got outside I looked at my one of my security guards who was also one of my drivers and he ran to get one of my cars. I normally preferred to drive myself but I couldn't really with my arm barley going all the way up and my leg always hurting. 

"Where to Mr.DeLuca?"

"Grayson's house" I said with a smile. I was overly excited. I didn't know how he would react and I didn't know if he even wanted to see me.

He left for a reason. I keep telling myself the reason wasn't me that and he was frustration or something.

When Nick passed I mourned him. I never said it publicly because he was the man who tried to kill me...who could have killed Gray. But I mourned him.

All the nightmares Gray had subsided came back and now there was new ones. Worse ones. Ones where I replay myself killing him and now I see it clearer than I did before. I need Gray again. I need him to take the pain and the nightmares away.

When we pulled up to his house I realized I had nothing prepared to say. I knew so much of what I wanted to say would come out as word vomit but I didn't care. I needed to see him I needed him to know I was sorry and that I wanted him. 

I got out of the car and walked up to his front door. His guards knew me so they let me right in. I rang the door bell and after a few moments there was still no one to open the door. I rang again and waited a minute or two. 

This time I knocked. I looked through the window and saw a kitchen light on. "Gray." I shouted from outside. I took a step back to see if I could see through any other windows but I couldn't "Gray open up please...It's Ale."

No response. I shouted loud enough so he could hear me if he was out back "Gray please I need to talk to you. I just need 10 minutes...20 max." Nothing "Please Gray."

I knocked aggressively on the door again "I am not going away till you answer me." That was a lie I would go away at some point but I felt like that would work. There was still no response. "Fine I'll just tell you from here."

I stepped back again so my voice could echo and I started practically yelling "Gray I-I don't even know where to begin. First of all I am so sorry. I'll never be able to put into words how sorry I am so I'll spend the rest of my life trying to show you. On top of that I'll spend the rest of my life trying to thank you for saving it."

I paused hoping he'd say something back "I-i know you don't want to see me but I need to get it off my chest I need to tell you that I still lo-"

Before I could finish my sentence a car pulled up behind me and I turned around. It stopped abruptly right in front of me. Out of the drivers side stepped Gray. He looked...fuck he looked good. His hair was clean cut and he had a little bit of facial hair. I immediately spotted new tattoos crawling up his arms. His button up had the sleeves rolled up and the first 4 buttons undone. Shit I forgot my words just looking at him. 

From the passenger side a girl stepped out. She was also beautiful she was pretty tall, very tan, her eyes were a pretty blue, and her hair was blond. 

"Gray." I said softly. He looked...I couldn't describe his face. He looked mad and shocked to see me. 

He put his arm around the girls waist "Go inside baby I'll be there in a second." he looked at me after he said the word baby. Suddenly I was a little less excited to be here. That's my fucking nickname. 

The girl smiled and stepped past me to go inside the house. As she closed the door he spoke "What are you doing here Alejandro."

"I-I came to talk." I looked back at the house "Is that your girlfriend."

He scoffed "God no I'm so done with that relationship bullshit." He stepped closer to me "Are you dying?"

"No-no not at all I'm actually recovering really well."

"Then don't ever fucking show up to my house unannounced again"

I furrowed my eyebrows "Are you mad at me?" He scoffed and rolled his eyes. I guess I do deserve that. I left him for a man that tried to kill us both "look I just need to speak to you please."

"I have important things to do Alejandro I-"

"Ale...you call me Ale." I cleared my throat as he looked at me in shock at how I was speaking back to him "And you don't fucking call anyone else baby."

"I'm sorry I remember this relationship ending because you left me...I wasn't aware I had to keep acting like that stupid nickname belonged to you. And it's just that...a stupid  nickname I can use it with whoever I want."

I clenched my jaw. He deserved to be mad. I just didn't like how he was showing it "Can we talk please." 

"Ale" he spat "I don't have time for this, or you. Things are over the past is the past and we will talk when there's business which I what I should have been focused on those months we were fucking around."

"We were not just fucking around. I loved you and you know that."

"You would not have thrown away something you loved that easily." he pushed past me and didn't look back as he spoke  "I'm serious don't come here again unless it's an emergency. And getting your fucking feelings out is not that."

I didn't turn around until I heard the door close. I bit the inside of my lip as my blood boiled...I didn't except it to go that way at all.