My Favourite Unfinished

Chapter 20

January 15, 2020.
(Amiya's POV)

What... Just happened?

I was just sitting there on the couch, contemplating everything I did last month and how much I hurt her.

How could I be so selfish?

I heard the door open again, she came in and hugged me, "I am so sorry... I came here to give you comfort but I did the exact opposite..."

Somehow, my dam broke, the overwhelming emotions I have been feeling for the last month came rushing out.

Not somehow...
Acceptance.
Accepatance of the fact that she isn't going to come back made my dam break.

I shook and clutched her jacket tightly, "I.. I am so sorry, Kai... I am so sorry..."

I was sobbing and whimpering.
And I didn't know what else to say to her.

I was dense.
I was dumb.
I was stupid.
And I was an idiot.

She was telling the truth.
I never looked at her that way, and I was so unaware of the fact that she was feeling so much inside her about me and yet... I didn't get a single hint of it.

And how could I forget that she would be hurt too because Aadhvita was her friend too. She was attached to her too and I was the only one she would share about these things.

And here I was, wanting space, not even realising that we needed each other at that time.

How was I oblivious to the fact that she loved me?

She was so patient with me that sometimes I thought I didn't deserve her.
It was unexpected for both of us.

I know 11 months or one year isn't a huge time, but it's not about the time, it's about the connection you make, and it's the attachment to that person that makes you feel miserable if they just leave.

I was ready, my anxiety was preparing me but I wasn't expecting it to happen that early.

Kai was rubbing my back gently as I sobbed, "That's it... Let it out. I am here..."

Her heart was beating fast.
The rhythmic thump, thump, thump, grounding me.

Finally, my shoulders relaxed and I let go of her, "I am sorry..."

"No... It's okay... I.. I am sorry, I lashed out of nowhere"

"At least I know now... How much I hurt you..."

She looked down and smiled, "Well... I am feeling kinda light"

I chuckled, "Yeah... That feels good"

"How are you feeling?"

"Better... I guess? I am not in denial anymore"

She nodded, "It's okay... We will go through this together"

I nodded.
I didn't want to think about anything else.
Her presence was enough.

After a few days, when the heat subsided, she visited me again.

She burst my room's door open, typical Kai.

"Ami!"

I looked at her, "You should really learn how to knock, Kai!"

She chuckled sheepishly, "Sorry sorry!"

"So... What's up?"

Her expression turned serious, "A date. You and me. Tomorrow at 6."

I couldn't go on a date with her when my mind is consumed of Aadhvita. That would be infidelity.

"Kai... I am trying to move on..."

"I know! I know! I—"

"My mind would be of her thoughts even if I do go with you... That's... That's wrong"

"I don't care really... I really don't care."

She took a deep breath, continuing, "I don't care if you think about her whenever you are with me or your mind is consumed with her thoughts, I don't care if you imagine doing these things with her whenever you are with me, I don't care about you not moving on because you eventually have to... So... Ami. Please. I don't care. Go out with me, hang out with me like we always do"

I took a deep breath.

"Ami... Nothing will happen until and unless you want it to, I assure you that. We will hang out and go out like we always do but I wanna call it a date for my sake and satisfaction. So please..."

The sheer desparation in her voice made me agree to it.

"Okay...", I nodded.

And she grinned, a wide shiny one.

No, I didn't say yes out of pity, I just felt like I owe her at least this much.

And the rest is history.