Papa Nightmare? [Nightkiller] [English Version]

CHAP 65 (P.1)

Killer's POV:

A day had passed since the argument with Cross, and the tranquility that reigned in the castle was doing my mind no good. I had too much time to dwell on his and Error's words.

'Me? The Boss's perfect match?' I felt like laughing. 'What a joke. What do I have that could attract him?'

Nightmare is tall, strong, capable, responsible... everything and more than I could ever be. If I had to list all his amazing qualities, it would be far too long.

But it's perfectly normal to admire your boss; none of that has anything to do with romantic feelings or anything like that, right?

What do I really feel for him now?

Hate?

No.

It's impossible for me to hate the person who gave me a place to belong. I can't imagine what my life would have been like if I'd never become part of the Bad Guys.

Where would I be now?

Probably in a desolate underground, repeating the same monotonous routine, over and over again.

Guilt?

Maybe...

If only back then...

If only I'd been stronger then, if only I'd thought more logically...

Nightmare would never have taken that <stress reliever>, that night would never have happened, I would never have imagined a brighter future, and fulfilling my duty as nothing more than a loyal subordinate under the command of the nightmare who stole all my affection would have been an easier burden to bear...

Many times I wondered what would have happened if I had made different choices. Would my destiny have been different? Or would everything end up the same no matter what I decided?

But the past can't be changed, and I can only deal with the consequences in the present.

Admiration?

That's more than obvious; it's almost impossible not to admire the will and aura of someone so strong. It's difficult to put into words how someone can be so grim yet so fascinating.

Loyalty?

Undoubtedly.

Respect?

Yes, definitely.

Appreciation?

It would be a lie to say no...

Love...?

...

No?

In the past...

I admit that in the past, the simple feelings of admiration and respect deepened over time, and I couldn't help but wonder what it would feel like to be more than just a subordinate to him, to be the only thing reflected in his bright pupils with a feeling other than hatred, to be showered with sweet and flirtatious words from time to time, to act like two soulmates in front of everyone, to be covered in kisses at night...

Despite that, all I can do now is wonder: Why him of all monsters? Why did my soul insist on beating so fiercely every time he spoke to me, looked at me, or was simply near? Nightmare isn't exactly someone who inspires calm; on the contrary, his presence is usually intimidating. But now, now... I couldn't help but feel... confused.

Lying on my bed, I stared at the ceiling as if I might find some answer there. My emotions, which I had buried so painstakingly long ago, now seemed to be trying to break free from their captivity with overwhelming force. The idea of ​​feeling anything for Nightmare was absurd. He's my boss, a being who, I always thought, knew only control and greed. But how can I forget those moments when his gaze seemed to soften when he spoke to me, how attentive he was the moment he knew I wasn't well, making sure I wasn't hurt on missions? Those small details, insignificant to others, remained etched in my mind like an unquenchable flame.

"What the hell is wrong with me?" I whispered to myself, covering my sockets with a hand. If anyone knew I was thinking about Nightmare like this, I'd be the laughingstock of the group.

*Knock* *Knock*

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