Just the two of us

3rd eye

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"Cause I can't take it anymore, hyung. I - my heart can't take it. I can't keep acting like I don't feel anything for you, cause I do, I've always had. And being luke this, being able to touch you yet not able to tell you how much I love you hurts me. It hurts me to wake up in the morning with you next to me but I can't shower you with affection, with love, my love.

I know I might be ruining something we had right now, but I can't keep hiding my feelings to you Hyunjin. I love you, and I think you deserve to know."

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"Do you know how hard it was to accept the fact that I actually don't just see you as a best friend?

And do you know what even fucking harder? Convincing myself that I'll never have you in that way. We will never be more than friends.

And as much as it fucking made me want to kill myself at some point, I knew I couldn't do anything about it, because I'd rather see you happy than make you leave me cause I couldn't keep love out of our friendship.

So you can't blame me for hiding things from you, Hyunjin.
You can't fucking blame me when all I did is try to stay by your side even if it meant I have to give up on my own feelings."

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"Why - why do you do this to me? Do you not get it yet? Or do you just enjoy humiliating me? Do you enjoy playing with my feelings, Lee Felix!?"

"I love you."

"Do you not care about anyone but y - what?"

"I said I love you. I love you, Hwang Hyunjin."

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"I think it's time I let go of you. I've been selfish for long enough, and I can't say I love you if I'm preventing your happiness.

So Hyunjin, go be happy and safe without me."

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"You had the right to fall in love too! You had the right to live your life too! And I'm so mad at you right now! I'm so mad, cause why the fuck didn't you tell me it was you!? I don't care if they killed me! I could've been with you! I wouldn't have left you alone!

And you know fucking what!? I'm not fucking leaving you alone now! I don't care if you don't love me anymore! I'm not fucking leaving! C-cause I fucking love you Lee Felix! Do you hear me!? I love you! Not the mystery boy, I love you!"

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"Are you, perhaps, flirting with me? Your prince?"

"You said it yourself, your majesty, my prince. If wording what my heart feels for you counts as flirting, then yes, I am."

"Young-ho........what are you doing to me? I'm scared.......I'm scared from what I feel for you."

"I could say the same, my prince."

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"Why are you doing this?"

"You know exactly why."

"You - we don't have to do this. Why are you punishing me for what my father did?"

"Your father took away my family. The only people I had in my life. He then dared to make me your royal guard. Why did I have to go through that?"

"Did you ever even love me?"

"No. You're so naive, your highness. I never loved you. I would never love the son of the person who killed my parents."

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"I - I loved you though. Didn't you love me? Not even a bit? Surely you must have fekt something for me! I can't be the only one! We - we've been together - we've been through shit! I don't understand!"

"I don't want to hurt you. Don't push me into saying shit I don't mean."

"You - you don't want to hurt me? Well, wake up Lee fucking Felix, hurting me is the only fucking thing you've been doing!"

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