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"You think you're different to me, don't you?" I tilt my head, staring at each other's lips.
Without breaking eye contact, he slowly stands, making him in control with the advantage in height. I'm the one looking up at him now.
"And you...
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There are different things I do to get what I want. Seduction, manipulation, blackmail, when I really want to put my mind to it, I'll do anything.
I'll do anything I have to do to put myself first, but there's only one person I think about before myself. And that's Reggie. In my eyes he's still my baby brother that would once look at me with so much admiration and follow me around every where I went.
For a long time I've been speculating between right and wrong with this little secret I've been keeping from him. At this point I'm not even considering my moms feelings, I honestly thought I was protecting Reggie by not telling him about my dad.
But then I think about how if it were the other way around, I would be so mad about them keeping this from me. How they let me believe this man was the best father I knew all my life, then turns out it was a lie. But then again that's me. Reggie is a lot more forgiving than I am. But is this even forgivable? I have no fucking clue what he'll think.
It's been driving me insane lately, I haven't been able to even think about anything else. My thoughts keep playing ping pong between the memories of Jude and my father, the thoughts about Jude confuse me so I return to stressing out what to do about Reggie.
So this is my new plan. I'll suck it up one last time. I'll pretend everything is great and be all smiles just for Reggie, I'll go on this stupid Spain trip and I'll pretend that everything is peaceful and then when we return back home, I'll make the piece of Shit tell Reggie himself what he did.
I figured I'll have him do the hard part first and if he tries to lie to Reggie about any of it, I'll come clean for him and tell Reggie myself. Sounds like an ideal plan.
One last good memory for Reggie. Just one month away from everything. That was a plus.
Today we left for Spain, my mom was surprised that I had agreed to come but I still didn't say much to her when we left the airport. She deserved the guilt she'd feel for a whole month, I made sure to decline her calls too.
If I'm going on this trip, I was going to leave everything back home behind, just the way it is until I return. I'd deal with Jude and everything else later. I just had to keep telling myself to push any thoughts about Jude away for a whole month. That shouldn't be too hard.
The four of us, fly first class and we arrive to Spain early morning. I slept most of the plane ride and my options were either to stay in the hotel with Giselle and my dad or go explore around the area. So obviously I chose the latter and forced Reggie to come with me.
